drag my teeth across your chest to taste your beating heart.

Howl - Florence + The Machine
xxx
I'm so addicted to this song right now. Especially when she howls with her soul.
Hello you. :)
I've been longing to draw a trilogy out for the LONGEST TIME.
I don't know what the trilogy is called, but...
#1: A Great And Terrible Beauty ( i borrowed this from bhavik and I'VE FORGOTTEN TO GIVE IT BACK. He must hate me so much now. D: )
#2: Rebel Angels (I borrowed this from yz and she didn't want it back........)
MAN. I AM SERIAL BORROWER. D:
I really want the third book, so I went over to Kinokuniya to order it :3 i cannot wait!
From day one I've been completely absorbed by these books by Libba Bray, they're so captivating! They're a little dark and really compelling, not everyone's cup of tea but i'm completely in love. The books are full of visual imagery that just appears by itself in my head in colours and emotion and I ITCH TO DRAW. :'D it's been a long time. Thank you Libba Bray.
I have to research Victorian era stuff though. If you know any websites with images of lace details or those amazing Victorian dresses or the brickwork of that era, feel free to drop the link or any information in the cbox :)
Help is much appreciated! :D littlethingsinaheart is gonna be bombed soon.
If I scan them that is D:
Draw first scan later! :'D
Hello after so long! Bye! Thank you!
Merry Christmas! Happy New Year! :D hahaha

SPM no more!

After 11 years of studying! My aim in life as a student all this while is now over!!
....
Now what do I do D: hahahaha

it's past midnight

愛してる.
you know i love you! :)
happy one year.

sometimes

I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Tonight I Can Write - Pablo Neruda
xxx
Cinta yang tak kesampaian tu lah yang sakit.
xxx
Hello! :D I've been through hell lately what with exams and all but it's all coming to an end; I think I failed if this were God's test = =
Hey I'm still alive :DD
Nabilah got her ukelele! I'm so happy for her! XD
whee!
On a side note, Joss Stone is amazing. :D
xxx
I went outside to grab the dry clothes in before it rains, and I heard this baby making noise so I looked up. There was a skinny old Indian mother with her hair tied back in a bun, and she and her baby looked over at me. I smiled. The baby was so cute!
xxx
It's raining a lot lately. It makes me wistful. I think a lot now.

losing at everything

Studies, life.
Gotta buck up.
I have to.

his eyebrows went so high

I saw a friend of mine today, and this random thought shoved into my head.
"HEYYYYYYYYY that's him, I need to get a little something for him."
...... it was damn random.
So I got him two small little shizz of curry puffs and gave it to him.
His face was priceless.
The moral of the story is.......
Er, actually it isn't done.
I try to do this thing called Pay It Forward, it's a really amazing concept if you watched the movie or read of it. I have no idea who came up with it but amazing nonetheless.
It's where you do random kind deeds and the receiver is supposed to pay it forward by doing another three random deeds of kindness and the whole thing spreads like wildfire if everyone does it! First you have one, then three, then three other people have to do three deeds so nine, then nine multiplied by three is 27 and.. well it's huge!
:DDD
Everytime I have small change, I put some on the public phone in school so people who have no coins can make an emergency call. I know the feeling where you don't have coins and you go AHHHHHHHH like a hungry tiger.
Hungry frustrated tiger.
Hungry, angry and frustrated tiger.
Anyway.
So a few days ago I had to scour my purse for a coin that could actually be used (I had 5 cent coins and 1 yuan) and then I found it! One 10 cent coin. Which probably would be enough to say Hello and then they cut you off XD
Then I saw it :D 10 cents on the public phone! YAYYY
It came back!
Now I gotta do 3. I did one already I think? Or maybe that was just "Alex"'s signature out of the blue thing. = =
I can do it!
Chin up, back straight, shoulders back. Basic ballet posture.
*psyched face*\

Happy birthday pa :)

Happy birthday Pa! :D
I love everything you've done for me and I really do appreciate you
Even though you don't know how much I do
I love debating English with you
I love your random silly NZ/Australian metaphors which I've never heard of
I love the little things you do when you know we're sad
I don't particularly like the scoldings
Or that time where we were made to stand on our knees for an hour
But it shaped me to who I am today
So what the hey
I love patting your stomach and teasing your MUSCLES
MUSCLES
Because they're hard work
And you've worked so hard for us
Even ditching the habit of smoking
Long past the time my height exceeded your armpit
And I could tell you to stop
I promise to be more responsible and have more initiative
As the eldest
Okay?
Okay!
OKAY!
....
....
YEAH!
I'll do my best! (because you hate the expression "I'll try")
:D

just like a song in my heart

Like A Star - Corinne Bailey Rae

Amazing song.

The song I think about instantly when I see my most favourite picture of all time: the Chii header you see now. LOVE.

Her innocence, absolutely comfortable and bared to the dark night.

Or maybe surrounded by darkness, but oblivious to her vulnerability.

Gad I love this picture and song.

xxx

I hope you like the things I did to the blog. Black is good! It saves heat emission. Or something.

XD hahahahaha

Like Google in black, Blackle. http://www.blackle.com/

OR Mystery Google which I find amazingly funny. I don't think it's working anymore though.

xxx
I'm going out this Saturday :D really excited.
Selamat Hari Raya everyone! :D
It's also my dad's birthday tomorrow!
After that one day of, of just letting everything out.. I feel happy. And bubbly, full of happyness :D it's an incredible feeling.
You know what word I think I use too much? "Amazing".
But that's how I see the world :D
HOHOHO.
Thank you for listening to me :)

Sunday morning rain is falling

Sunday Morning - Maroon 5
One of my favourite songs of all time.
xxx
This is why I love my Sundays.

1. I wake up in the early morning to go out with my sister and mom to the park to walk around and exercise a little. We're talking about 7 a.m. where dawn is just starting to get its fingers into the dark sky. We go to the Menjalara Park and walk around, the air is so cool and fresh! I have yet to learn how to dress properly to exercise though.

2. We then go to the morning market or 'pasar pagi' around that area and look around at all the lovely clothes; they're not of high quality and the prints are often weird, but if you look hard enough there are some amazing gems in there. Especially those jean shorts, God those are amazing. Then we browse through accessories and sometimes organic foodstuff. xD

3. We go for breakfast around 9, picking random shops and trying their wares. Hit and miss basis... mostly hits. Food is good. xD like dim sum, or curry pan min noodles. GOSH.

4. Creative Writing class at Pusat Tuisyen Indah. I went when I was in Form 3, and I loved writing in Ms DJ's class. I loved her comments, her way of thinking, her rare constructive criticism, the way she encouraged all of us to read. She even lent me her books! I loved them all. She printed my essay once as a worksheet for the class. I was really, really touched. Now she's very busy with her own business of encouraging young minds to read, write and think creatively so she gets Johnson to substitute for her. He's also a bird of the same elite, great flock. Surprisingly, he can tell stories like whoa, speak amazingly well and get his points across, I really admire that. (he also is at the front line for this project called E.P.I.C. which strives to get more young people to be involved in voting or at least have an opinion on the politics scenario of our country. It's really amazing! Check them out on Facebook :D) He also has these ideas he implements in class, which is really fun and always has a purpose.
Ohhhh. XD This has to be the highlight of the week.

4. The half hour break between Creative Writing and Karangan class. It's just f*cking amazing to talk to Johnson and Wei Jin about anything that comes to mind. Usually (before I started going for the class again) Wei Jin would sit outside and wait out the half hour and I suppose he would too, reading essays or something of the sort: waiting for his next class of PMR students. The first time I went for class, I immediately asked him if we could sit and talk to him for half and hour. Now it's like a kebiasaan :D hahahahha. It's so fun to talk to him! He makes us laugh so much and he can speak really well. To be able to talk like that to someone who thinks on that mature level, to be able to debate about random things. It's just... amazing. I'M SORRY I'M WAXING LYRICAL. XD

5. Comments on my essays. Finally, I can ask someone who can tell me what they like or dislike about my essay. English teachers are the bomb.

6. The time after 12 but before Karangan actually starts. I talk to Wei Jin and she'd tell me so much! She cracks jokes like nobody's business, I didn't expect it. She's so funny xD and great company. It's like girl bonding session. XD Hahahahaha. What we discussed was for us only, no boys allowed. XDDDDD hahahahhahaha

7. Karangan class! I have random conversations with Choo Wei and smile weirdly at Wei Jin to make her laugh. Mr Mark is the funniest person I know, he's so funny! And he's an amazing BM and Sejarah teacher; he relates things by telling stories and cracking tons of jokes, but he knows when it's time to get serious. One of my favourite teachers. :') he was the first to take me under his wing when I first tried out the tuition centre; teasing my rather cacat Mandarin skills yet making it lighthearted and explaining things thoroughly to me if I didn't understand. I tried out when I was Form 3, and I think I was in a Form 2 BM class. I was older than the people there, but they made me feel a little small when they booed a little at me. Mr Mark had just introduced me, and mentioned with a teasing quality that I can't really understand Mandarin and spoke mostly English. Strength in numbers? Maybe. But I can handle it ;D Look at me now! Making friends left right and center. Hahahaha

8. Going home, eating lunch and getting ready for group study. It's like a break for my mind. Teasing my sisters, talking to my dad and eating lunch that differs everytime. My dad packs food for me :)

9. It's now 3; time for group study with Huan Hee! :D Suddenly it's just me and her and us talking unpretentiously about our lives and our problems. It's weird that we can be so close and not know each other for years and years. It's just so easy to talk to her, and laugh with her. Hahaha :D We do get some studying done in that particular branch of Old Town Kopitiam after eating and drinking what we ordered. I love the way we have a set seat now, the end seat on the left of the smoking section that's so comfy. Although people smoke everytime we sit there, we just tahan as it's only one stick. After one stick we start making noises. We'd be like, "I HATE SMOKERS RIGHT HUAN HEE" "I KNOW, WHO'S THAT ***** SMOKING AH" loudly. They don't seem to get the message though, it's so funny. XD We split our sides laughing at the little things. Then there's the staff who we'd already begun to nickname affectionately. There's Shower Cap Dude, Cute Guy, No Front Teeth, so on. Cute Guy always takes showers with Shower Cap Dude. Hahahaha. XD

10. Going home at 7 and eating dinner. I know I have to iron the clothes for the next week but I always leave it for Monday morning exercise now.
And I K.O.
The end :D hahahahha
xxx
Last Sunday it was that sort of cold where it nips you on the nose and leave your fingers cold. There was a slight drizzle in the morning, and I went up to Creative Writing class. I knocked, I entered and it was pitch dark with Johnson's face lit by the glare of his laptop screen. He was reading a story. I was taken aback, scared even for a while when I saw this. XD Hahahaha.
I remember just closing my eyes and enjoying the little nuances, the rise and fall of his voice as he read the story of a brother and sister who finds out that their father had not "died" but was a vampire. It was dramatic, not a very good story but the way he read it combined with the self-inflicted darkness of the behind of my eyelids, oh it was so good. It was evenly paced, spaced so well for drama to seep in, the emotions of the characters subtly projected by the deep, smooth quality of his voice. I remember not looking at him, instead looking out at the little cracks of the window covers where the sunlight spilled in.
The morning sunlight is amazing. It has a watered down, pure quality that gently kisses the skin. I love opening my eyes in the morning and looking out my window, soaking in the light of the 'wet' sun.
The slanted light of dawn heh :D hahahaha. (sorry, making private jokes with.. myself. = =)
The spell he cast over the room was so compelling, we were just drawn to his voice waiting to hear the rest of the story.
I'm looking forward to next Sunday, no matter if it's Johnson or Ms DJ :D
Damn straight. :)

it's getting lonelier.

Number 1 : loneliness.
It was weird, having something hit me in the face like that today.
I miss having someone to talk to about anything.
I miss her.
I miss Wye Zhi.
I miss the way things used to be.
Funny, everything's just drifting apart.
(I wouldn't change Leanne for the world though :) thanks you DARLING THING. Hahahaha)
Today I sat for my theory exam. No one knows.
I figured the world doesn't need to know.
Yet now you do. I just... I just keep contradicting myself, what the heck.
I want someone to know, I want to tell someone everything stupid in my world and then get serious about stuff, I want so much and then I hold back. Story of the stupid masochist.
(tehehhhh masochistic lion. xD ANYWAY.)
It was weird seeing people in the foreign and strangely quiet whitewashed classroom in SMK Bandar Utama Damansara 3. They were so much younger than me, I felt like I was the oldest in the class! It was like time passed me by. I wouldn't have it any other way.
After that I had Literature class with Pn Yong in school. Hema wasn't there, and suddenly I felt lost. I've been feeling like this a lot lately. I'm never fully there anymore, lost in my own thoughts. Except Sundays. I love Sundays. I still have lingering feelings for Monday.
I just.. drift away and think.
(I'm sorry.)
After that, I had a break of 3 hours before I had a 3-hour tuition for Physics and Chemistry. In the tuition centre I never felt like I belonged anyway but today it was worse. Normally I'd be comforted that all these people knew me but never dared to venture further despite my small smiles. I'd feel comforted in the aloneness.
It was horrible to sit there today, separated from everyone else by this language barrier or way of thinking. I'm like a different species. A great, figging banana who dares to debate whenever she feels she could be right, only in language classes.
Huan Hee made it all go away, and made me laugh. Thank you. :)
I still feel lonely, but I know that people do care.
They're just not here at the moment.
xxx
Number 2: jealousy.
IT WAS SO WEIRD.
I was dreaming the other night, and I saw.... this dude (close to me, almost like a brother?) with his arm around this beautiful smiling girl with long black hair. They were talking so easily and laughing all the time, the perfect picture of happiness that can be found in easy conversation and a great understanding for the other. I was talking to them, having a regular conversation. He introduced her to me.
And suddenly my smiles all felt forced, I looked around at the other people around us (that I can't remember for nuts) and smiled distractedly, sipping my drink. I remember I had a drink.
There was this heat, that burned from where my heart was. It burned till it warmed my hands. I can remember this amazing, intense emotion and I was like WOW.
Then I woke up, the jealousy still fresh.
I put my hand over my chest; I was breathing shallowly for some reason.
Crap, that was amazing! It wasn't even real.

200

What a nice round number!
Thank you for reading up till now :D I know I get a little (who am I kidding) long-winded so I want to thank you for sticking with me hahaha.
UMM... oh yes.
Happy holidays and Selamat Hari Raya! :D maaf zahir dan batin. Lovely time for apologies. xD

Key to my heart

xxx
So damn inspirational.
And the animation is so good paired with a great song!

All along, love was in your own heart. :)

xxx
I wonder why everyone seems to love other people, but not themselves.
xxx
LOVE! - Hebe, from S.H.E.

Back and forth

Why do we find such comfort in repetition?
I like rocking slightly, back and forth. It calms me.
Babies fall asleep in seconds if you pat them to sleep.

Autistic people do things over and over; something familiar, something instinctive.
People in pain feel better once someone rubs them up and down their backs.

Why?

Maybe we feel comforted in the know of something, a routine. Like oh, we know the ropes and there's nothing to be scared of.

Maybe?

I don't know.

It's nice ainnit :D

TEHEH, random moment.

Love this song.

As if I feel your eyes on me
The scent you have left
There just are the feelings of those things

Even though I close my eyes, I can see everything
Your everyday...
I wonder if it is beautiful without me.

Let us no longer talk about the sad stories
That made me cry and left you deserted
Together, left alone in this once beautiful world
My days and your nights
We both look at the same end
Baby lover, let's close our eyes together.

Give it up, give it up (can you see the light?)
Give it up, give it up (there ain't no one here.)
Give it up, give it up (It's our only way.)
Can you see the light in me?
Give it up, give it up (Don't be scared my love)
Give it up, give it up (There'll be song for you/I'll sing a song for you)
Give it up, give it up (And let the flowers rejoice.)
Can you see the light in me?

My heart, inside has been wandering
Finally it has found its path
If we were together every other morning
Hugging the entire sky
We would have shown everyone this happiness

Let us no longer talk about the sad stories
That made me cry and left you deserted
Together, left alone in this once beautiful world
My days and your nights
We both look at the same end
Baby lover, let us fall asleep together.

Give it up, give it up (can you see the light?)
Give it up, give it up (there ain't no one here.)
Give it up, give it up (It's our only way.)
Can you see the light in me?
Give it up, give it up (Don't be scared my love)
Give it up, give it up (There'll be song for you/I'll sing a song for you)
Give it up, give it up (And let the flowers rejoice.)
Can you see the light in me?

Just holding my hand, deeply fall asleep.
Comfortably, your body; just lean against me
The painful love: no longer
I want to wrap you in my presence and fall asleep, oh
I just know the things you want for I want to give you everything, oh
The things left from this night
Only believe in the love
The darkness and sadness covers us every time.
All you have to do is want it
All you have to do is, well
All it has to be is me who loves you.
The scent of your breath as it touches me
I quietly hold your hand and I want to close my eyes
Feel it: together you and I, become the wind

Everything is liberated when it's love.

Let us no longer talk about the sad stories
That made me cry and left you deserted
Together, left alone in this once beautiful world
My days and your nights
We both look at the same end
Baby lover, let's close our eyes together.

Let us no longer talk about the sad stories
That made me cry and left you deserted
Together, left alone in this once beautiful world
My days and your nights
We both look at the same end
Baby lover, let us fall asleep, together.

Give it up, give it up (can you see the light?)
Give it up, give it up (there ain't no one here.)
Give it up, give it up (It's our only way.)
Can you see the light in me?
Give it up, give it up (Don't be scared my love)
Give it up, give it up (There'll be song for you/I'll sing a song for you)
Give it up, give it up (And let the flowers rejoice.)
Can you see the light in me?

CLAZZIQUAI. ♥
xxx
Romeo N Juliet - Clazziquai
I love how they're just two guys and a girl: Horan, Alex and DJ Clazzi. The DJ mixes it all and creates such beautiful music :D
And the harmony of Horan and Alex are just heavenly.
If only I could find a guy like this, I'd thank my stars, kiss my toys and never look back.
XD
I don't understand what I just said.
XD

Across the autumn sky

A rendezvous in the night surpasses all joy on earth.
xxx
Today is Qi Xi Jie, the 7th day of the 7th month in the lunar calendar.
There are two or more versions of the story behind Qi Xi Jie, which means Seventh Evening Festival if literally translated. :) I like this version. :
Zhi Nu is the 7th princess of heaven, a weaver of clouds and daughter of Jade Emperor and Wangmu, the queen of heaven. Niulang is a normal cow herder on earth.
Both met and both fell in love.
I have no idea if it's related to the puteri kayangan and the earthly mortal who, bewitched by beauty, stole her magical, celestial clothes and made her flightless.
The only thing important here is love.
Can you feeeeel the loooooove tonight :'D
This was greeted with disapproval from Wangmu, so with a flick of her hairpin she separated them with a river in the sky, now known as the Milky Way.
Wangmu eventually felt bad for them and decided that they could meet on only one day, the 7th day of the 7th month each year: she would send magpies to form a bridge over the river so the two lovers can meet for the night.
Oh, love. :DDDD
xxx
credit: http://chineseculture.about.com/od/chinesefestivals/a/QiXiJie.htm

You saw me through

Happy 17th birthday Hema Gunasagaran :'D
I love you.
From Standard 2 in Moral, we've hit it off like nobody's business and are probably the only people that still write old fashioned letters with pen to each other.
Hahahahahhaha
We had our first fight in Std 6
Failed attempt at outraged heroism in the same year
Grew up together
Shared all crush stories, what a CONFUSING time
Faced a death together.
And grew stronger together.
:)
I hope you have the greatest day today.

OHHH

Wei Xuan looked beautiful in her dress :D
Hahahahaha! It was the only reason I went, but surprisingly SMK Seri Hartamas' International Understanding Day was amazing! Not in an OMG OMG OMGGGGGGGGG way, but it's like a sleeper hit.
Tons of amazing acoustic acts, great bands and dance routines that take you by surprise. Dang, I didn't know that all of them can dance like that!
Akouein did a mash-up (medley? meh) and it was so goooooooood :D
Hahahaha. My favourite bands were Wanted Symphony and Revellers, because they do their thang well :D Wanted Symphony was just crazy! They have so much energy, it's amazing. And all of them are cute :D ahahhaha.
Andrew (the lead guitarist) just "became one" and menjiwai his guitar; it's so cool onstage, he didn't really look at the audience much and was really into the sounds he made.
Daniel (the keyboardist/lead vocal) was amazing! He could play the keyboard, sing his heart out AND jump like crazy away from the keyboard then go back to it with a bang. I know it's kinda silly to be swept up by gimmicks but this is one I'd fall for, over and over again. I thought his voice'd be slightly deeper, but his voice can hit those tricky notes and I just lost my point XD if he'd had a deeper voice it'd be weird :D ahahaha.
The bassist, Aaron (?!): I dunno if it's just me or the light but I think that person onstage has gotten cuter since the last time I saw him? Maybe it wasn't Aaron? I DUNNO XD but he was so cute OMG doing the harmonies and bass! I'd fall for anyone who can harmonize.
The drummer was just WICKED. :D I think his name is David. He's so cute :DDDDDDDDD he couldn't really be seen, so I had the impression that he was small-sized but he started playing and suddenly, everyone was just jumping and going crazy to the addictive beat. Amazing.

The Revellers were also quite good. I thought they were a really rock Malay rock kind of band, but they surprised me and started playing these ballads with a bit of jazz incorporated in their songs with meaning in their lyrics. They're.. quite good! :D

Smackers XOXO and Midnight Mystery were VERY good. The Smackers crew busted their hiphop moves like there was no tomorrow. And Midnight Mystery did a very languid, sensual number; it was great! Reena you take mai breath away :'D
Hahahaha.
All in all I had a fun time.
And I saw DODOL! :D He looked different, wore a different pair of glasses, a deceptively simple white shirt with black pants and a necklace, the sort with a black band and a metal plate as a pendant. :D you looked good! (if you're reading XD)
I spent a lot of time beside Wei Xuan and with Sabina and Maisarah :D AND I SAW LIEW
OMG
SO CUTE EDI
HOW
Hahahahahhaha
Maisarah and Sabina are so fun to be with :D

Sister bonding is epic

Hahahahahahahha
I don't believe my ears and eyes.
Both Mandy and Chloe (aged 15 and 11) are doing karaoke to Kelly Clarkson, Katy Perry, etc; singing their hearts out with the volume on LOUD in front of the computer with lyric videos playing. XD And Pa is watching a movie.
I love my family :'D
No matter how much pain we go through, there's always love.

No way NO WAY

I'm gonna see Wei Xuan in a dress :'D I'm so excited!
xxx
Today is the day International Understanding Day AND MTV World Stage happens, so it should be an exciting day for most :)
I think the Interact board (as much as I'm "against" them, because English Club members always enter the club, then ditch it for the Interact Club when they're old enough hahaha) did their best this year.
Everywhere I look I see people practising for The Day and it has come. So put your best foot forward, good luck and
BRING YOUR HORSES TO THE FORE 8D
(It's a Chinese expression: Bring it on.)
Hahahahaha :D
I'll post about the whole event later. See you then!

I want you but I never said it.

Lazy Sunday Morning - Clazziquai
What a perfect song for me and me blog :'D
xxx
I wore my heels out today for the first time. I felt incredibly tall :D
I saw Nabilah! She's so pretty. And well-dressed!
And I trimmed my fringe a bit, it's sort of short but I love it! I've always wanted a really short fringe anyway, so this is... going halfway XD
xxx
HAIRSTYLES I'D LIKE TO TRY (not in order)
1. Short pixie boyish cut. With the really short short fringe.
2. Alice Cullen
3. Long big curls with bangs
4. BANGS with shoulder length hair that curls inwards a bit
5. BANGS :D
6. I don't think I'd look good in bangs :( BUT BANGS! :D
7. Straight hair. HAHAHAHA
8. Some urban modern look paired with black squarish glasses
9. Side fringe with poofy curly chin length hair :D refer to the girl in Sweety - Clazziquai.
The song SWEETY IS LOVE :)
10. Free flow red red red hair
etc etc dan sebagainya
xxx
I'm tired of crushing like hell on someone for a bloody long time, hoping for them to see me only to have them go crazy for another lovelier, prettier, smarter, funnier etc. girl. I know, apparently there are only a mere handful in the world that are like that but it's not once, twice but THREE TIMES
WHY
So many girls like that is it?! XD
I'll just save my weirdly expressed feelings for later. I'm ready to be a PLAYER.
*snort*
This outburst isn't wholly random. I stumbled upon an old-ish bookmark I made, with a simple ugly picture and the words, "You make me feel like I'm on top of the world." And then a strawberry Metoo I bought in China. And then remembered an old frog I made. And a card?
And yeah.
I count them all as experience. I even base some of my fictional characters on them, gathering the little things and quirks that make me fall so hard and putting them all into my stories.
I have pictures and the written word on my side, and I shall keep on hoping for every one of you to go get some of that magic they call love :D find it, let it break you, make you cry and laugh, then come back and tell me ;D
And I promise likewise(?).

Silly TV talking by itself in the living room.

Lazy Sunday Morning - Clazziquai
I love Clazziquai :D
xxx
TV's on in the lounge area.
My sister sleeps faster if the TV is on. Especially if Family Guy is going to play at night. She'd sleep just before it plays XD XD hahahahahhaha
It's so nice to sleep with the TV on, listening to its soft mumble as you slowly close your eyes, never really comprehending what's making all those people laugh in the background.
Kukukukukukukukuku
xxx
http://idontwannaever-loveanother.blogspot.com/
She may not have the best spelling in the world but it shows how she talks and expresses how she feels. And that's called great writing with feeling.
YES I'M PRAISING YOU DISALLOWED
KUKUKUKUKUKUKUKU
I love you Mandy :D

Per aspera ad astra

Through the night to the light.
xxx
Ai seh. :D Hello everybody!
I've been really weird. Not good, not bad. Just really.. weird.
I think it's a good thing :)
xxx
Everybody!
There's an event happening this Friday in Bangsar called the Bangsar CF Amazing Race!

Where: Bangsar Gospel Centre, opposite Starbucks near Bangsar Village
When: 2.00 to 4.30 maximum
What: A fun activity where everyone's invited! :D It's like a short bite-sized version of Amazing Race on AXN hee hee. XD Find a friend and pair up, as groups will be assigned by pairs on the spot. It's gonna be so much FUN 8D
Transport: Working on it, but right now we have transport from and back to school. Limited seats XD ahahahahahaha I'm kidding.
Ask me about it. ;D

Make time for this event as it's gonna be amazing.
TEEHEE bad pun

I like you (no, I love.)

Wo Xi Huan (Bu, Wo Ai) - Yan Jue
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我喜欢你的眼
wo xi huan ni de yan
I like your eyes

看着我的眼
kan zhe wo de yan
looking into mine.

我喜欢你的脸
wo xi huan ni de lian
I like your face

贴著我的脸
tie zhe wo de lian
close to mine.

我喜欢你的手
wo xi huan ni de shou
I like your hand

牵著我的手
qian zhe wo de shou
that takes my hand.

我喜欢你的口
wo xi huan ni de kou
I like your lips

吻著我的口
wen a wo de kou
lightly kissing mine.

*时间在改变
shi jian zai gai bian
The times are changing..

你不要改变
ni bu yao gai bian
You; please don't change

CHORUS
因为我很爱你
ing wei wo hen ai ni
Because I love you very much

不想要你放弃爱情
bu xiang yao ni fang qi ai qing
I don't want you to give up on love.

尤其这段得来不易
you qi zhe duan de lai bu yi
Especially now, when it's not easy.

我爱你 真的是很爱你
wo ai ni zhen de shi hen ai ni
I love you, I really do.

所以想就这样继续爱下去
suo yi xiang jiu zhe yang ji xu ai xia qu
So I want our love to go on this way.
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credits: Top10 Pinyin Lyrics. I translated! I TRANSLATED! :'D
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What a cute upbeat song :D I was mis-led! I thought from his pictures he'd be a serious and ballad person, with a deep voice as smooth as honey.
Instead he surprised me with his refreshing clear voice and an amazing skill to say things really quickly XD
And then he inserts a little jazz into his songs that I simply love. He's so happy!
Happy, upbeat, I can just imagine him smiling as he sings his songs instead of the seriousface hottay on the Chinese newspaper. I'm still going through the album and he seems like a kind of sensitive and playful person through the songs, melodies and them funky high notes with the mellow chords.
I'd love to know him.
HEEEEEE. :D
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After 20 minutes: Oh, they're quite a few lovely songs in his album!
I love it, so much.
Thank you Wei Xuan :'D

You've begun to pursue a lonely freedom.

Red Bean/Hong Dou - Khalil Fong/Faye Wong
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What a beautiful song with so many hidden gems of lines in it.
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A funny and cute girl called me cute in tuition today. I'm not cute.
I don't know why she or Alaina or some other people call me cute XD I'm long, lanky, dark, incapable of speaking well. I spout random things that make no sense. I'm more quirky than cute, whuuuuut!
Look at Brice, or dodol. They're much cuter :DDDDD
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Today I'm going to tell you a story.
It's about Nobody and Somebody.
Nobody once used to be in a group of friends who over the years, drifted apart. You know. These things happen right. Break time in school was a people-watching affair. He watched as people go by in pairs, in groups, laughing as they walked leisurely to the cafeteria. And he'd smile. He doesn't envy them at all.
Somebody considers Nobody his best friend, but due to circumstance somehow he's got two circles of best friends. Where one is present, the other is naturally left alone. Mutually exclusive, where both cannot happen at the same given time. The bigger circle is better to be with, what with all the constant crazy laughter and joy. Nobody remembers the time where he used to do that. Now, cliques have formed their rigid barriers and people are unwilling to change. They might accept Nobody for a little while, but Nobody similarly does not want to intrude or frankly, be close to them. If Nobody can't have the one he wants, he'd live without the best. They can't replace number one in Nobody's heart.
Nobody soon became like a nursery's wallpaper; rainbows, sunshine and pastel colours the whole day through yet nobody really pays attention to it.
Nobody doesn't mind. It's okay.
Somebody doesn't want Nobody to pull away but things happen.
So. It's okay you know. :D things will work out.
The end(?).

I haven't yet experienced the warmth of a waking kiss.

Red Bean/Hong Dou - Khalil Fong/Faye Wong
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What would it be like, a kiss?
What a curious thing.
For two people who feel that fickle feeling, love. For them to feel the same about each other and share a kiss without feeling self-conscious at that moment, leaning in to feel the other person's lips on yours.
I wonder.
Maybe it's different for everyone.
I guess the kiss depends on the depth of feeling.
Yes?

Sorry

I ditched you again, Leanne.
I may not come this Friday too? I think. Going to Penang.
Today I've got a fever and stomach problem... XD and I don't want to go to the doctor. Why go when I can obtain active natural immunity on my own? xD
-nerdmomenthahahahaha-
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Is it weird that I want to be a doctor/musician someday? When I hate going to the doctor's place unless I'm really REALLY sick? XD
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I feel like vomiting today.
I don't know why.
I'm going to school later though, to pass up PEKA and do scouts registration. :D
Maybe it's my body lashing out against me because of all the stress I put myself under. So all emotional, I threw my hands in the air and said FUGGIT, I'M NOT GOING TO SCHOOL.
I asked my dad if I could have breakfast with him, and he (who's sick and incapacitated) showed gentleness and said yes. He said he understands the stress factor and sometimes all you want to do is just brush it all off, lock it up in Pandora's box and sleep. Later can open the bloody box again but you'd be refreshed and there's always hope, no?
Thank you Pa. You may be really stubborn and hard-headed and fuss about the small stuff all the time but I know it's because of circumstance.
So we went to Restoran Kak~ :D I LOVE RESTORAN KAK
You all should go visit. HAHAHA. It's near the Sri Cempaka school in Damansara, near all the Jalan Setia-xxx (ie. Setiabudi, Setiabistari, etc). It's the only shop I know that sells these amazing kuih-muih in the early morning.
I've been going since I was 9! XD I really like the way they make the egg sponge cake, the butter pau, a fried kuih with glutinous rice in the middle and yau zha kuih. They have paus too, they're really really cute and bite-sized but delicious.
An uncle and his wife runs the place and it hasn't changed one bit since I was 9. Maybe the workers changed lah but other than that, same patrons, same tables and chairs, same coloured plastic sheet roof and same delicious teh tarik.
Hahahahhaa :D eeee, shameless unpaid advertising.
What're you waiting for??? :D
Now I'm refreshed! Back to school; see you soon!

I'll never ask for more than your love.

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You - Khalil Fong
What started this feeling is pretty simple.
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Oh my goshhh :D
He's so cute in this video, especially that longing look he gives the girl in the classroom while he was writing the love letter.
The way he held her in his arms when they danced, so natural, intimate yet respectful of personal space. The girl just lights up with a smile from the heart... so pretty.
<3>
And then I watched the Red Bean cover of his and the lyrics hit home. I know the original is by Faye Wong but his version is so simple, so beautiful. Why is he always singing about a love so painful yet worth it? Or a love just out of his grasp?
The small little melancholy smile he did at the end of the video took my breath away.
You've never seen something truly beautiful and heartbreaking until you see someone you love smile like that.

I wonder if your day is still beautiful without me

Romeo N Juliet - Clazziquai Project
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I feel like I'm doing the same things over and over.
Bathe. Eat. Tuition. Bathe. Eat.
Oh wait, didn't I bathe like this yesterday?
Didn't I eat a big dinner yesterday?
Why do I feel hungry then.
Oh we're gonna eat dinner again today.
............................ ngeh.
Having breakfast is my way of breaking the cycle. XD
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I wish I had the means to make every day different.
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I was visited by a moth yesterday.
Malays, Indians, Chinese and maybe other races have this belief that moths are a symbol for souls coming back to visit the people they love. Have you watched Bleach? Them lost souls turn into awesome black butterflies after they've been purified.
The moth that visited me was a medium-sized moth with a cute plump, furry body that perched on the wall above my bed. After I bathed and dressed in my pyjamas, I saw it and was surprised.
In a good way.
I mean, a soul came to visit me specially :3
I took a towel and approached it, saying hi and what are you doing here? The moth had many shades of brown on its wings, creating patterns of dots and stripes while at its head there were these pair of soft black eyes just staring at me. Surprisingly it wasn't creepy at all, just a rather curious gaze.
It then flew a bit and landed gracefully on my towel. It may not be as beautiful as the colourful butterflies, but moths have a certain mystery to them. Look closely and you can see these many patterns on them and most moths I've encountered are HUGE, with sweeping wings and the occasional eye-patterns painted on them.
My moth had a little bit taken out of its left wing though... so it couldn't fly properly. I chased it a bit as it flew, giddy like it was high. Finally, I took it out to the balcony. It magically started to fly down to the big streetlamp facing my balcony, and I smiled.
It was weird, and it moved me.
What if..?

WTF DEVI'S

WHY!
My dream since Form 3 was to fill up 3 tables with us Christian Fellowship members under the shade of those leafy romantic trees of Devi's Corner just like in Szetho's time but HOW THE CRAP CAN WE DO THAT IF YOU CLOSE DOWN
And become a bank?
:(
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At least we did use three tables once, two weeks ago. :) I guess that's enough.
Still! Why my yearrrrrrrrr
AJFSDFSCNOWEYCGVFSMGJFWEIKPOSFKL
:'(
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Aih.
I should explain myself. XD I'm the president of Christian Fellowship, the figurative mom of all my members :3 hahahahahahha. I love being able to get close to all of them in God's presence and have fun with them each Friday of the week, sometimes with a break in between. I like playing the guitar and leading worship, I like being able to sing in front of them and they have some measure of fun. I like prayer groups where we just talk about anything, I like sharing word because we all get something like a post-it note in our minds throughout the week.
However, throughout the years our numbers have dwindled.
In addition to that, the new headmistress didn't let us have a meeting of Christians or non-Muslims in general during their annual big prayer in the beginning of the year. It was horrible! I couldn't see why we couldn't pray as well while spreading the word that there was a Christian Fellowship organization in our school. No one knows about it, NO ONE.
Okay maybe a few. But NOT ENOUGH :)
It's the first time we didn't have this meeting ever since I stepped into the school. And I can assure you it's been done before I was in SMKSH as well.
I told her it was a tradition, but she wanted the right platform to hold this event.
Platform.
What the hey.
But I've gotten past that, asking everyone to spread the word by mouth and I try to be as persuasive as possible to get people in ;D I prayed once for it. Then Mandy got June in, then got Jayne, Celeste, Alex, Janine and Gary in. AND I WAS LIKE 8D
Hahahahahhahaha!
After that, our long time venue, Canaan Church wasn't available to us anymore; Pastor Daniel is expanding the church and slotting a new ministry in the time slot we have our CF, so it's kind of... awkward. So he told us, and I was absolutely devastated. I couldn't think straight for a week. I guess it's my fault, because I've started CF late this year (April). I take the blame lah, but I felt so bad for the members because I didn't know what to do. So I prayed for this too!
And you know what? Cheng Jin (gotta love him :D) saved all our asses by suggesting we go to the park! :D If we're gung ho enough that is. So I got everyone to the park, and they were willing to come :'D I'm so proud of them. We had 2 sessions in the park and scouting sessions with Cheng Jin and Jeffrey, where we went around looking for possible locations where CF could be held. It was a little off-putting since we went on a Friday afternoon when no one was in ANY church, so we just got their numbers and headed our separate ways. Joyce got the number of a pastor of a nearby River of Life Sanctuary church and I sms-ed the pastor after some time, because I took time to mull things over and school was getting busy.
And you know what? One of the youth leaders (which later became known and loved as Soon Seng and Anne) replied my sms and emailed me! And then we got to know each other and used their own youth place called Stamped, where they have air con, drums, a keyboard, a whole lot of space, a toilet, projector and more than we could've asked for. I was so bloody happyyyyy :3
So we got past that too.
But now, now DEVI'S IS CLOSING DAMMIT
I can't move on :'( they didn't even give us any bloody notice! D: I feel so cheated. Hahahahaha. XD
I'll miss so much, like the payasam, the uncles, the kakak-s. I hope they move some place else and not disappear altogether :'(
Aih.

都為了愛,愛,愛.

Khalil Fong - Ai Ai Ai

All for love, love, love.

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I'm in love with Khalil Fong :'D
I want you in my life. I want to know the stories of your childhood and who made you write those songs where you couldn't be with the one you love. I want to know why you like jazz and R and B, I want to learn guitar from you. I want to learn Mandarin from you in your voice so smooth and honest. I want to steal your glasses and make you see me as a blur picture and not in detail, where we can love each other's lovely side and leave the slightly bad apple quirks for later. Oh Khalil Fong :D
Hahahahahhaha.
Your songs have everything I love AND your mellow voice that has a few hidden personalities. They serenade me to sweet dreams, they challenge my view on things, they make my belief in love that much stronger.They make me want to write as well as you do, with all sincerity and frank feelings.
Oh,
You make me melt.
I'm in love! :D Ahahaahahaha.
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Sometimes I come out and see myself as I am through other people's eyes. I usually don't really care and continue doing my own thing, but sometimes I get curious and ask people what they think of me. Normally all would come back positive but now all I see are negative things about myself..
I've gotta work hard and combat all this!
I've got to.
:) wish me luck. If I succeed, I'll thank you for reading and just being here to listen to what I have to say inside. :D

そう, おもいが あれば.

Begin - DBSK
Even if we are apart, we still can share something if we have our memories.
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I woke up at 8 today. The sun was streaming down in seemingly touchable golden rays, the birds were chirping and the air was so cool.
What a wonderful day :)
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HI DODOL
This is for when you check around
hahahahahahha
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Yesterday I had a heart-to-heart talk with Wye Zhi.

We talked about DBSK and how fast they changed from one hell of a band with amazing bonds to now, where they broke into halves and they don't talk to each other. They were such a big part of our lives, in Form 2 and 3; we talked about their antics, their looks, their quirks and everything. Wye Zhi wrote, Hema read, Chandni laughed along with me, Wei Xuan dominated the games, Leanne tried to beat her at it. (Sorry, I truly am but for me, these are the core LGGs.) It was so fun! And then we could actually have two or three whole periods going on and on about DBSK, a bit of Super Junior, playing games they played on variety shows like catch the mouse or dibi dibi dib and then after that, we moved on.
Yeah. Super Junior then hahahahaha. They were really cute, but the members' names kept flying past my head. Except Eunhyuk, Kangin, Siwon and Heechul. Oh yes HEECHUL. :D
We played "rollercoaster" which wasn't much of a game but it was super fun. We laughed about everything like mad people.
We talked all the time about Chandni's many love interests (who are all into her, the lucky girl), my uncanny ability to attract slightly weird people, Hema's silly boys who couldn't see her for the wonderful person she is, Wye Zhi's amazingly whimsical and hilarious fic which always came one chapter by one chapter and then she'd go and edit the death out of it. It was crap amazing. Wei Xuan bullied Hema with Chandni and Leanne... wasn't much of a talker then. I didn't really know her, now that I think back.
Now she's proud to shout whatever she thinks and sing Baby like a man who ate chalk. Hahahahaha, she's so funny.
She's an amazing person. Always scolding me like a mom, and taking care of me as well. But then.. now I feel like she's pulling away from me. I mean, I know lah they really like K pop and I try to like it as much as they do by getting into a little more Super Junior. I still feel left out when they're talking about them, like, WTH I'm here and yet you're there.
I feel.. hurt by the little things.
I know. So stupid. There's so many other things but
ANYWAY
YOU SHOULDN'T READ THIS PART 8D
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I still miss her. I wonder what it'd be like if she didn't get sick.
I wouldn't have made up with Wye Zhi, I think. I'm thankful for that, at least. :)
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I really like playing the Nintendo DS. 8D
Games like Rhythm Heaven, Elite Beat Agents, Ninja Gaiden Dragon (where I'm the hotness, Ryu Hayabusa) and definitely The World Ends With You DRAG me without mercy to the screen for hours on end. XD I can't keep my hands off it!
Why Nintendo.
Why.
XD

Old, I am

I went down to the minimarket today wearing my slippers
I said hi to a friend of ours who lives in the condo
I got lip gloss! :'D
I thanked her, touched
I reached the minimarket
I bought tape
I twirled
I walked home with a spring in my step
I took off my shoes
And I realized that I have them on the wrong way round.
The end.

The world had less colour without you.

Darling I Do - Landon Pigg and Lucy Schwartz
NGEE.
-Shrek Forever After
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Do you know that I don't like it when a duet title has the word "featuring" in it?
I memang tak suka.
Hahahaha. It's like this is my song, and you're just a little part of it.
Whereas it's a combined effort that makes the song fly. Ainnit. :D
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I LOVE I LOVE the song Darling I Do. It's so sweet and simple with such hearfelt lyrics and wonderful vocals~ Landon Pigg surprises me! Based on his name I thought he'd be a little weird, but he's so cute and has such a soothing wonderful voice.
Lucy Schwartz has a unique voice! I listened to When We Were Young before, and I liked her rich voice. But in Darling I Do, both their voices sound so perfect together.
NGEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I can't seem to load it though, the connection's so slow.
And not many videos have been posted on Youtube. Download the video juga tak boleh. :(
I shall survive. Hahahaha.
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I'm in Penang! Chloe and I followed Pa up for a business trip, and now we are a bit restless in the room. So we watch Spongebob in Malay :D
It's so windy here, it's amazing. The air conditioning in Hotel Royal is so cold, but adjustable so it's the wonderful kind of little chill. Hahahahah.
I went down with my sister to eat the complimentary hotel breakfast this morning. They had the usual breakfast spread, which is every wonderful delicious thing we love. Mee goreng, nasi lemak, Western breakfast consisting of ham, sausages, French toast, baked beans and all that. And then the dessert corner, which has fruits and tarts, etc. and then the hot and cold drinks and THE BEST PART OF ALL
CEREAL!
Hahahahahaha.
I've had a craving for Koko Krunch for the LONGEST time.
As I approached the see-through plastic pitcher for Koko Krunch with wonder, there was this dude who passed by. This guy was buff, with nice defined arms and he wore a rusty orange polo which offset his frame quite nicely. He was a bit taller than me and popped his collar, so I didn't think much of him lingering round the cereal corner.
Initially.
As I poured the lovely brown curls into my shallow bowl, I was a bit surprised when he lined up behind me, looking at the pitcher in my hand.
My eyebrows shot up, my eyes went wide and I said "SORRY" and then realized something incredible: "OHH you want the Koko Krunch too?" I exclaimed. A little too excitedly. XD
Hahahahhahaha
"UHHH.. yeah.." he said, a little taken aback.
Hahahahahhahaha
See? Not all guys who pop their collars are arrogant pricks.
YAY.

You don't know my heart that loves you.

Please Love Her - Ha Dong Kyun
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Jamkkan gidaryeojullae jigeum derireo galge
wae jakku ulgiman hani
malhe malhe eodi-e inni
niga saranghaneun sarami neoreul dugo gan geoni
jibeuro deryeoda julge
kaja kaja barami cheoga-unikka
Neoreul ullineun geu sarami
mweoga geureoke joheuni
neoneun moreuji neoman moreuji neoreul saranghaneun nae mameul
georeumi neurin naega meonjeo gaji mothaeseo
nae jaril ppaetkkin apeun sarangeul
Neo-ui eunneun moseubi nuguboda yeppeunji
geu saram algina hani
jeongmal jeongmal algodo neoreul ulliniireum
moreuneun dangshinege butak hanaman haneunde
Saranghaejweoyo saranghaejweoyo
naega saranghaneun geunyeoreul
sangshini na daeshine gajin na-ui geunyeoreul
hamburo darul saenggakhamyeon
Andweyo saranghaejweoyo nae ma-eumdo mollajuneun geunyeoreul
geunyeoga saranghaneun saram dangshininikka
naboda manhi saranghaejweoyo
dashineun ullijineun marayo
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Will you wait for a bit? I will come now to pick you up
Why do you only keep crying?
Tell me, tell me where you are.
Did the person you love just leave you and go?
I will take you home.
Let’s go, let’s go because the wind is cold.
What is so great about the person that makes you cry?
You don’t know, you don’t know my heart that loves you
I couldn’t get there first because I was slow
The pain of the love that took my spot
Your laughing face is more beautiful than anyone
Do you even know that person?
Does he really really know and still makes you cry
I ask you, whose name I don't know, for a single favour:
Please love her, please love the girl that I love,
You who have her instead of me.
You can't just think about something else recklessly
Please love her, you who do not even know my heart
Because the one she loves is you.
Please love her more than me,
Please don't make her cry.
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The lyrics are so beautiful.
It's so... it's so sad.

Breath of life

I DO APOLOGIZE FOR THE LONG ASS POST :D
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I woke up today stirring in and out of consciousness, hearing outside sounds that somehow merged into my vague dream. Then suddenly, my body decides to take this huge intake of air and then I felt all refreshed 8D And I sat up, unable to sleep anymore.
That's almost like a breath of life.
And it's essential to get it right when you are pretending to sleep hahahaha
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I love Spring Waltz, a Korean drama. I really love it. Although it may be considered a bit old and a little out of the mainstream, the soundtrack is AWESOME (piano and ballads won me over) and the actors are fresh and I just found out that Eun Young's brother is actually Si Won. Which is kind of weird. When I first watched it I loved the silly brother. Now I can't look at this the same HAHAHA.
The actors are a damn fine-looking bunch. Hee hee.
Han Hyo Joo, the girl is just so bloody cute! :D There's so much between the girl and the guy, but because of surreal circumstances they can't be together :( but they did in the end. So. Happy ending for everybody!
Seo Do Young is the him of the story. He's a model, actor, singer and can play the piano, OMG. And he speaks German and Japanese 8D Love him.
The other girl of the story is Lee So Yeon. She's a very pretty lady. She has amazingly huge and expressive eyes that I love.
And of course, I can't leave out the best part,
Daniel Henney :DD EEEEEEE. His character is called Phillip, half-Korean. He speaks German and he works out in the drama, and he made this speech to Eun Young that I loved to pieces!
Something like, "if you can fit this shoe this time, maybe, just maybe, you can be my girl." Then she doesn't understand, of course so he kind of gives up a little, pulls back and says:
"Eunyoung. (frustrated) You don't understand my language... you don't understand my heart." with a little sad smile.
:(
:(
I UNDERSTAND
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Philliiiip :'( Phillip is the sweetest thing.

My guitar has been to Ampang.

Happy belated Wesak Day!

It was a holiday, so I decided to go out with Chang Min for a "musical" outing. TEH HEH. I brought along my guitar for he asked me to go to a park near KLCC to play music and sing for fun, while studying English, Korean and Bio just in case. XD

I was really excited! It's my first time someone actually spent time with me to make music with them, so with my guitar safely packed in the padded case (which is a little weird because it doesn't have a strap.. like a handbag hahahahaha) and my Bio notes slit into the bag, I headed out with my dad to Kelana Jaya.

*The first person to ask me to play with them is Huan Hee :3 I'm still very touched.*

We stopped by this restaurant nearby, where we'd appointed to meet. I was looking around absently, wondering where he was then suddenly he knocked the window and waved. SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME. XD

My dad sent us to the Kelana Jaya LRT station and from there, we took the LRT to KLCC. On the LRT it was really cold! I didn't know it was so strongly air-conditioned. So we talked and talked about stuff.

It's really easy to forget he's 20.

He let me listen to his current favourite song, an old Korean song by Yun Jae Ha. Then he let me listen to a recording of his voice singing that song... NGEE. It was really good, but the fact that he let me listen to it and said "don't laughing, please" touched me more.

He decided that we should have a breakfast of roti canai at the third floor of KLCC, so we walked at a slow pace, taking our time. He led the way, and we filled up the space between us with wholehearted smiles, confusing but fascinating conversations and awkward courtesy. We went up to the food court where we went to a shop named Hameed's Nasi Kandar to have their roti canai and honey chicken. It was a bit mahal tapi sangat sedap :D I asked him which sauce he likes with his roti canai, and he said... "curry" XD so he got fish curry and I got dhal. He told me that he checked Ampang Park out, and it wasn't too safe. Therefore, we had to change the whole plan, and there were just so many possibilities in KL, no? He then said he's looked up the Ampang area online, so rajin hahahaha. Apparently there's a little Korean town in Ampang somewhere, so we had a rough plan to go there. Don't know how, but we could always figure it out right :D

I told him my sauce was called dhal, like "foot" in Korean (pahl) but with a d. And then he told me, "dahl" in Korean means moon. HAHAHA. He liked the dhal more than the curry in the end.

Fish in Korean is cham-chi!

Cloud is kurum, star is byeol and moon is dahl.

After that, we headed to Juice Works because I've been craving one of their creations since I went out with Leanne to MidValley and bought a Pink Passion or something. It was wonderful. He picked out Berry Burst and insisted on paying, but my stubbornness got me to pay for half of everything we bought from then onwards. Hahaha.

Then we walked down the escalators, where we saw this girl/guy? wearing pink. When I asked him what he thought of homosexuality a while before, he said, and I quote, "Well everybody.. has their own love style." EEEE. :D "But I don't like boy!" HAHAHA.

So then he quipped to me, "Do you like strong girl?" while nudging in her direction. And I was like, NO. XD I like cute girls more, hahaha. To demonstrate, I did a horrible impersonation of a lala pose hahahaha! And he understood.

We also came across this whole group of tadika students probably out on a field trip. They were blocking an escalator because someone in front was hesitating at getting on the escalator.


Have you ever been scared like that when you were younger? Scared of getting on the escalator, the yellow lines chasing after each other so quickly that you were sure you couldn't put one foot between safely. I've been scared of escalators XD I told him that, and waited for them to go, smiling at their attempts. In the end, most of them had to use the lift.

Mind you, I was still lugging the guitar around hahaha!

We finally walked out of KLCC. He asked around about how to get to Little Koreantown but everyone was like, "Huh?" and couldn't really take the time to understand his words, but they had a vague idea and kept directing us to the other side of the road that had buses to take us to Ampang. Even when we asked a taxi driver, (where he offered us a ride there for RM20) he too directed us to the opposite side of the road; so we politely refused him and sat for a while, mulled it over then finally crossed the road hahahaha. Sorry taxi driver!

Whatever happens, the buses always come back to the same stations. So we took a bus from KLCC to Ampang Point, which was empty when we got on board. Then I dunno what happened, but I started talking to the bus lady, an Indonesian lady named Elly. She was very cordial and chatted us up, talking about the Korean currency, roti canai and Sumatera. And Ampang :D hahaha! She wore this thick dark blue polo shirt with a light long-sleeved shirt beneath it. She had a black pouch around her waist and wore nondescript black trousers. With her glasses perched a bit low, she had to raise her head a little when talking to me or Chang Min.
OHHH The cutest Korean couple ever got on the bus! The girl was very fair and petite, wearing a beige shirt that flattered her complexion, pink cheeks and fine dark brown hair. The boy was wearing a green striped polo shirt but thank goodness tak pop his collar like arrogant pricks. (No offence if you think you aren't an arrogant prick but pop your collar anyway.) He wore these big black full-frame glasses that looked so incredibly quirky and cute at the same time and they got on holding hands, EEEE :D They took a seat at the back of the bus.
An Iranian lady also came onboard, with an old Chinese lady with permed, snow white hair following behind. So with these few passengers, we started our way to Ampang Point. When we got there, I didn't know until Elly prompted me XD so we got off, along with the cute Korean couple. Chang Min was like, "Follow them, follow them hahaha". So we followed them, but we pretended to be stalkers and waited till they were a distance away. We followed them up the jejantas, when we saw this sleeping old man without half his left forearm lying down on a piece of cardboard with a plastic cup in front of him. I looked for my purse, fumbling around for a while, found some coins and put it in his cup while Chang Min put one ringgit in. HEE. :) We walked on and suddenly realized that we lost the Korean couple hahahahaha! What lousy stalkers we make.
We caught a glimpse of them as they turned in to a road behind, but we went our own way. So we wandered around, still talking about stuff hahaha. I wasn't too impressed if this miserable row with three Korean restaurants was called Koreantown. XD So we were walking the empty row, then we turned in, walked straight ahead and then saw on our left AND right, rows full of Korean shops, a mamak, libraries, everything! There was a bank, a church, a school nearby, apartments and even a supermarket! OMG, I literally went WUUUUUAAAAHH. Hahahahaha. I was amazed, this really was like a quaint little secluded neighbourhood.
I saw a few students walking past us, wearing pink, green and yellow. I can't really remember. One of them wore those black rimmed glasses and looked me in the eye, so I looked back and nodded politely. Anyway, I turned back and talked to Chang Min. After a while I asked him what they were talking about when they were a bit loud, then he laughingly said "Oh, hahahaha bad word." XD
We went back to Ampang Point, went up to the karaoke because he told me he missed Korean karaoke and asked for a big room for 1 hour which really isn't that big. The audio was horribly loud and deafening but we enjoyed ourselves like mad! You know when the volume is really loud, you cast aside your inhibitions and let your voice loose? Yeah that's what happened hahaha! I even went out to ask the counter lady how to turn the volume down, but the way she told me didn't work HAHAHA. And that one, called Song Box was a corny karaoke where they turn the volume up really loud and the mics have crazy echo effects like in old Malay rock songs. It was amazing. We played I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing and I came out half deaf with that amazingly poignant chorus in my head.
Crazy.
Then we got out, of it and said thank you to the counter lady. OH, I must describe this counter lady. Her face was slender with a feminine mouth. Her hair was cut short, spiked like a boy's and it was reddish pink at the tips. She had piercings on her eyebrow and mouth, and OMG, I don't know why but I found it so sexy hahahahahahhaha! SORRY XD She wore a lazy grin with a cocky expression in her eyes, almost like a confident guy. It was so interesting.
When we got out, I asked Chang Min... "boy or girl?" with a mischievous grin on my face. He looked back a bit, then looked at me and said.. "boy?" XD AHAHAHA. I was like "it's a girl!" And he looked back, slightly puzzled and very much amused. I looked at him incredulously, gestured exaggeratedly that she had boobs and we laughed like crazy as we walked out of Ampang Point and back to Koreantown. When we walked the jejantas, the man was gone.
So next, we visited Lotte Mart and looked at their wares. The Lotte Mart there was more like a supermarket, unlike the one we have in Hartamas which has limited stuff and was like a normal minimarket. We were looking around at the drinks, and I asked him which one was nice. He ummed for a while, opened the fridge and took out this cute little can that read Fanta Shaker Hundle Hundle, with bright orange bursts and cute font. Game, I went along with it and we bought two. The nice soft-looking lady at the counter bid us farewell with a small smile as we smiled radiantly back at her. Outside, Chang Min directed me to shake it hard 10 times, so I did. Then he told me it remains solid if I don't shake it, so I was really curious about the contents and looked away when I opened it in case he tricked me and some orange coke was about to hit me in the face. I shook it pretty well. XD
It didn't burst, so I drank it and OMG, it was heavennnnnnn. It's been such a long time since I had a jelly drink, so I melted and was so happy at the first sip that I took a long draft the second time. They don't have it in Hartamas by the way. :( hahahaha.
Then he called me weird. HAHAHA. Because most people in Korea didn't really like this drink, because pssh, they want drink and not jelly with it, but he quickly says he likes it. So I called him weird too. XD
We ate at a little Korean place that was empty except for us as people just dropped by to buy a few handmade kimpahp and leave. We sat there and he ordered kimpahp, tteok-ko-chi and another thing I forgot, because now I realize I'm in his turf now. He's the one who can speak Korean. Hahahaha. I put the guitar beside me and then we were served soup and our carefully cut kimpahp roll. They gave us those yellow half-pickles that I love and a small dish of cucumber in bright red chilli mixed a bit with clear liquid. He pointed at it and smiled at me cheekily, saying it's like kimchi. I tried and it was a fresh, sort of cool minty chilli that wasn't too spicy and complimented the cucumber perfectly. It was new and lovely!
All in all I fell in love with the kimpahp. PAHHHHP. :D It's a sort of Korean sushi that had cucumber, beef, egg, rice of course and other stuff in it. It was really good.
After that, we went to ANOTHER karaoke because the Ampang one was a bit of a letdown hahaha. We went to a Korean karaoke this time, a small cosy one with lush green cushion padding and dark brown polished wood frames. There was a small bar tucked inside with the bottles arranged neatly and the soft yellow light filtered through them, giving the pace a sort of secluded ambience. It was really nice! There were a few rooms where people were singing, and the uncle there directed us to a waiting area where we listened to the people in the room behind us, they were so funny. XD Chang Min translated bits and pieces and I laughed my butt off. He talked to the uncle about the price and got us a student discount, yay :D RM30 for an hour for two! It's a good deal if you ask me, hee. The uncle looked me up and down at one point with a slightly weird look. I felt very odd but Chang Min was there so I smiled through, he was there to protect me from weird uncles. :D I cheekily said Anhyounghaseyo hahahaha as we walked into our room. I spent the whole hour listening to him sing his favourite songs, all slow ballads with high notes. OH, I loved it. He was having an off day though, so he drank lots of water. Hahaha :D Finally, upon his insistence, I sang Aubrey by Bread. It was just okay and nothing special, but he told me I was good and "the feel was there". Aww.
After that we took another bus to Bintang LRT station in Ampang (which I foolishly thought was Bukit Bintang HAHA) and hitched the STAR LRT to Masjid Jamek and switched to the Putra line back to Kelana Jaya. It took us almost an hour. I didn't know it could take so long. But we had to sit close to each other for it was a three seat bench and an uncle was occupying one seat. NGEE :) we "chatted" to pass the time, which meant scribbling random sentences into his notebook. I tried to sleep but then he wanted to draw my sleepy face, so I slapped myself awake and continued random chatting with him. Hahahaha, he always says things like how are you and I like ___________, it's so cute. He's learning complicated words in British Council, like qualification and economics and antibiotic, I was like WHUUT, kamu belum lagi tahu basicnya D: what lah. I guess I'll leave it up to them if they know what they're doing. I have faith!
Then we went our separate ways after dropping him off.
The next day, my arm LENGUH HABIS. HAHAHA.
My guitar has done a lot of travelling. :)