let's go quiet to the park where it first started

26 NOV 2011 ♥

:)

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In Your Arms - Kina Grannis

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♥ you kina

Ours To Keep - Kina Grannis

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How does circumstance
Seem to cost us every chance
At living out the truth in our hearts

It seems the best laid plans
Fall just outside our hands
And leave us broken down and far apart

But if faith plays a role
I know someday I'll hold you in my arms forevermore

So let's love like it's ours to keep
Love like we've always dreamed
And maybe this time
The fates will be kind to us
So let's love like it's ours to keep

I wish there was a way
That we could somehow stay
In this perfect moment in time

I'd give up everything
Cause this is all I dream about
Whenever I'm alone inside my mind

I pray faith plays a role
So that someday I'll hold you in my arms forevermore

So let's love like it's ours to keep
Love like we've always dreamed
And maybe this time
The fates will be kind to us
So let's love like its ours to keep

So let's love like it's ours to keep
Love like we've always dreamed
And maybe this time
The fates will be kind to us
So let's love like it's ours to keep

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What if he read the last post? HAHA facepalm :D

Because.. I would wait till he was okay with this thing we have.

And I realized 3 months is actually quite a short time hahaha i fail :D

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It's hard to be in touch with him.

When I'm awake he'd be sleeping, and when he's up I'll be dreaming.

(I mean I sleep a lot but STILL)

My idea of having someone to hold actually didn't have this, I thought it'd be spending a lot of time with each other just talking or whiling away the time being happy and silly.

But time apart just makes me appreciate time with him more, and longing to see him makes seeing him even sweeter. I miss him so, but everything will be okay.

:)

"I know someday I'll hold you in my arms."

Till my arms hurt teehee :)

heavyhearted

It's not everyday someone likes me.

It's even rarer that someone I like likes me.

So why the hell am I being so stupid about it?

I want him to want me as much as I want to be with him.

Because I am impatient, I tend to initiate things when he says we'd take it slow.

Take it slow my foot!

Then stop making me melt everytime you say sayang, kiss me on the head and cheek, hug me, say you like me and all that shit couples do!

Wtf?

Because I mentioned liking you, you say it back.

I don't want to push you in the direction of asking me,

I want you to ask because you'd want someone special to hold.

I hate feeling this unreasonable.

And then he goes around being accepting and sweet.

-_________-

pms-ing much?

Sigh.

hello ginsky!

:D welcome to Of Music and Sundays! :D

hahaha

xxx

So.................. readers?

I do like him.

Just thought you'd like to know for sure.

:)

How to...

React when you stare at someone and they look back!
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I gaze at people a lot.
So what do you do in that awkward moment where they catch you staring?
Hahahaha

1. Don't break eye contact! That would make it all weird and awkward and make you seem like a pervertius giganticus. :3

Look back and keep eye contact.

2. Nod politely
This is to acknowledge that they exist and yes, you were looking at them. Because you were. Don't deny it, it's too late for that.

3. Smile a little (optional)
This is if.. you were staring at someone who interests you. You want to project your good image yes?

4. Look away
Because it's what you wanted to do in the first place. :P hahaha

Now you know how to react when you stare at someone and they look back!

THE END
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yes, you can hold my hand if you want to

Because I want to hold yours too.

Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

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Can you guess what happened to me?

hahaha

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We went to Pasar Seni to find our way to Petaling Street using a map courtesy of Google.

He held my hand the whole way (:

I was absolutely speechless.

The way he held my hand was perfect.

At first he grabbed my hand and pulled me lightly in the right direction, and normally we'd let go after that.
But I lingered and held on to his last two fingers as I followed him from behind.

I was already so happy,

and he somehow manoeuvred his hand and put his fingers through mine, at the ends.

I couldn't speak.

My heart was somewhere in the clouds,

I didn't let go or reject it.

So in one subtle move, he opened his hand and laced his fingers through mine thoroughly.

All I could do was smile till my cheeks hurt.

When he looked, I kept it in, or looked away.

/melt

ethanethiol

I want you to know that,

YOU LOOK SO INCREDIBLY CUTE WHEN YOU CRY

That is all.

xxx

Okay, that is not all. Hahaha

I'll always be here for you.

I love you! :3 hahaha it's really unexplainable how I love you SO MUCH after only a short time of knowing you. Like we grew up in the same house, laugh at the same things and know what the other's going to say.

It feels like I haven't seen or hugged you in such a long time <3

Smelliest compound in existence, that's you I'm talking about HAHA

insecurities

Do I mean something to you?
You make everything seem so easy.

Like you do it everyday; it may not be as significant to you as it is for me.

Because after all, this is my first time.

Normally I'd take a few months to really get to know someone's quirks and character, then develop feelings. But you just walked in, charmed the hell out of me with your quiet strength and your subtle ways. You test my limits, you dance around me in circles of flattery and pretty words. The little things you do make me smile and the things you make me do put me on edge. Like, REALLY on edge.

I don't even know if I really like you that way yet.

I know that there's this little bud in me,

and if I let you hold my hand it will bloom slowly, surely and really sweetly.

But that's not playing fair is it!

It's like I'm not truly liking you for you, I'm liking you because you're interested enough in me to want to hold my hand! And it doesn't even seem like much to you D:

Shit I'm so confused.

wow

This isn't a coincidence right? Because you seem to answer all my unsaid questions.

xxx

That's how it is isn't it?

Try,

don't try,

it's still going to hurt.

So just go with it and you won't lose anything.

xxx

Hahaha thanks for reminding me of why I want to feel this with another (:

I want my heart to be lifted indescribably high,

filled till it overflows with mixed emotions

and broken into bits and pieces

by someone who wants me for me.

Because then you'd know I really care. :3 heehee

And after that if I cry, I'll do it without much regret because

I want this.

And I will say it to your face.

Break my heart.

V ^^ V

i fall into a pile on the floor

I Do Adore - Mindy Gledhill

H-H-Heaven help me.
xxx

Could you, like, not make me melt like that?

Speechless alex is no fun.
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It's been raining a lot a lot A LOT lately.
So nice.
I could sleep the whole day long---
if my dad let me.

T - T

grace just isn't my forté

I Do Adore - Mindy Gledhill

When you're near, I hide my blushing face and trip on my shoelaces. :D
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Hahahah the title says it all.
I'm a bumbling,
clumsy,
awkward,
artless,
gauche thing.

):
I try to be all graceful and precise, but it just doesn't want to become me.
Bish.
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I try to be patient and calm, but you put me on edge.
Do I really interest you?
Am I just a placeholder?
I want to make you happy,
yet I know we cannot possibly last.
Do I have the heart to make and break you? God knows it's hard to leave someone, and harder when someone leaves you.

Should we enjoy our time together, or do we speculate about the future?
mehhhhhhhhu.

i love the way you say good morning

The Way I Am - Ingrid Michaelson

(:

xxx

I love saying good morning.

It's like saying, hey you're in my morning, you are the first thing I see in the day and it makes me happy. :3 That's what I feel anyway.

It's intimate, yet polite.

xxx

Happy Malaysia Day! (:

I promise to write something of substance soon. I want to write so badly, but I forgot what I came here to write. ):

See you then? (:

say what?

DISTINCTION FOR GRADE 8 B*TCHEZ!

I love you all,

so, so much.

nightmares

Chasing me, it's always chasing me.

I don't even know what it is.

It just chases me.

Corners me,

suffocates me,

drives me into a dead end.

I cannot take this fear.

xxx

I had a dream that the car i drove fell backwards into a body of water. Water entered and took over my vision.

I was going to die,

and I knew it.

Someone unlocked the doors, and I was like

Thank God.

Rushed to open the car door.

Everything sinking.

No oxygen.

Can't breathe.

And I woke up grasping at the air,

wanting to cry.

if you were an ice cream flavour

You would be my favourite one.

All About Your Heart - Mindy Gledhill

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Hello :D how you been!

My practical exam went okay...

My scales were HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE THINGS

then everything picked up after that. Pieces flew beautifully, and I enjoyed playing them.

My examiner was a tall British man called Jonathan Beatty. His eyes were a beautiful, clear blue-green and greeted me with polite warmth. Before I played Month's Mind by John Ireland, I said "I hope you like Ireland." And he was like "I love Ireland."

:DDD

He even thanked me after playing it, saying he doesn't hear it enough.

Heheh.

My last one about describing the piece and period was kind of off though.. but what's done is done. I regret ONLY THE SCALES.

<3

xxx

I went on my first date yesterday.

<3

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I didn't even know for sure that it was a date...

But I loved every moment. I enjoyed his company very much and that's kinda all there is to it.

We had lunch and he paid,

we had ice cream,

and we walked and talked.

I love the way he touches; respectful yet intimate.

I like the way he looks at me; assessing, warm, direct. Honest. Predatory sometimes. D:

I hate the way he always compliments me to fluster me that bastard

And I love to make him smile.

All in all, a gorgeous day.

She says I'm a masochist for falling for you

Masochist - Ingrid Michaelson

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Recently my friend made me realize something: I fall for guys that have a 100% chance of letting me down. Arrogant, good-looking, never gonna fall for me types.

I'm not masochistic by my own conscious doing..

I swear ; - ;

xxx

My practical exam for Grade 8 piano is coming up.

Wish me luck!

Hello, remember me?

(:

xxx

My subconscious has been really confused of late.

It's not the kind of confusion that puzzles you actively every minute of the day.

It's more like.. a background sort of thing that eats at you from the inside.

I shouldn't be confused, says the rational mind. But I've never felt this before..

You know that magic banter between two people who are interested in each other? It's easy, it's fluid, full of compliments that might or might not be true, perceived through rose-tinted glasses. The way the other's smile looks somewhat different from normal smiles, this one sort of lights up the whole face. And you say, I never knew I could do that.

And then you smile back like the sun.

Then doubts kick in.

Maybe it's just how you are used to interacting with girls..

Maybe it's just going to fall apart like the rest before..

Maybe I'M OVERTHINKING

Yeah.

If you want me, chase me. I'm not going to fall head over heels then roll over ninja-style and stand up again because nobody catches me.

:3 hwaiting.

I'll be waiting.

xxx

I realize that no matter what distractions try to do to me,

you'll always be there.

Even though we haven't known each other for long, I want you to know that I love you.

I never ever want to feel that I couldn't say I love you because it's too late.

failure.

I'm not a stranger to failure.
I know it, I don't care much about it, I am irritated by it, I can't help it, I am not good enough.
But I can't fail now.


I ask for strength.

she's a genius.

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor.

No one laughs at God when the doctor calls after some routine tests
No one's laughing at God when it's gotten real late and their kid's not back from that party yet.

No one laughs at God when their airplane starts to uncontrollably shake
No one's laughing at God when they see the one they love hand in hand with someone else
and they hope that they're mistaken.

No one laughs at God when the cops knock on their door and they say,
"We've got some bad news, sir."
No one's laughing at God when there's a famine, fire or flood.

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head
you think that they're about to choke.

God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus.
God can be so hilarious
Ha, ha
Ha, ha

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they've lost all they got and they don't know what for.

No one laughs at God on the day they realize that the last sight they'll ever see
is a pair of hateful eyes.
No one's laughing at God when they're saying their goodbyes.

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head
you think that they're about to choke.

God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus.
God can be so hilarious.

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one's laughing at God in a hospital
No one's laughing at God in a war

No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor

No one's laughing at God,
No one's laughing at God,
No one's laughing at God,

We're all laughing with God.
xxx
Laughing With - Regina Spektor

this night is sparkling

Taylor Swift - Enchanted
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I went to the Country Barn with my mom last Friday. Can I just say IT WAS DAMN COOL
:D
Every Friday at the Country Barn pub, they have this whole country night on. The band, "Ghost Riders" play country music the whole night and people dance along to the music on the dance floor. Of course, the age range was a little older, but dancing is ageless.
:3
My mom pointed out the regulars hahaha! Throughout the night she ordered me drinks: let's see, there were 2 dry martinis, a Campari Orange and a bacardi coke.
....
I'm very unattractive half-drunk. Hahahahahaha. My body was radiating heat and i was pink all over. And giggly. But I still had my wits. :P
I danced a waltz for the first time with this guy named Harith Hess. It was amazing, so exhilarating.
I slept well that night. :)
xxx

The crossroad, a.k.a. the interview.

JPA scholarship interview that is. I got chosen for an interview in UiTM Section 17 campus, Shah Alam. (Tip for those going in the future: CHECK THE BLOODY PLACE OUT. Google Maps is misleading and there are quite a few branches of UiTM. If it is still in UiTM that is. Best to check it out anyway. :) )

After Chemistry class, I went straight over and slept a bit in the car. I woke up to my dad cursing because we were at the wrong UiTM and he really didn't know where to go anymore. I had to be there at 3.15, and it was already 3 so you can imagine the cold sweat ahahaha.

We dropped by an office in the campus and asked the Malay ladies how to get to the other campus. The gentle lady took like 5 minutes explaining how to get OUT of the campus itself so Pa was like. I have no time, is it okay if we borrowed a kakak. HAHAHA

It so happened that that day, they were understaffed so nobody could go along with us to guide us. Thank God there was this Indian guy there who was willing to lead us out then guide us from there. He was dressed in a neon orange shirt, black working pants and shoes and a white hard hat.

On his motorbike, he led us to the exit then tried to explain the way to Pa, but Pa was so damn nervous he straight out asked the guy to follow us. And the Indian guy agreed! So all the way to the other campus we were like, thank you thank you thank you so much. Hahahaha.

After the interview we found out that his name was Said and that he was Mamak.

Pa was like, God sent me an Indian-Muslim angel.

So 1Malaysia right.

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I went donned in a royal blue baju kurung Kedah I bought when I was in Form 1. I'd say 50%-50% were wearing baju kurung and formal attire respectively. There were so many parents waiting around for their kids and there were these areas where parents were marked off, make them so anxious or kan cheong only. :O

In my group I was the first, probably because my name starts with an A.

I was pretty surprised that they didn't require us to bring our portfolios in, we all just gave our respective portfolios to the admin people to flip through. What are the certs for then? D:

When we got in, we all had to introduce ourselves. They cut me off when I was talking about my extracurricular achievements, I'm not too sure if that's okay. If they deem it unimportant then oh well, they have the paperwork to look at anyway :)

They asked me why my name was so weird and if my parents were Chinese... because I don't look quite Chinese.. and what the meaning of tikus membaiki labu meant. Hahahahaha

Sorry. I find that quite funny :D

They also asked me where would I go, why not Malaysia, what trait do you think a doctor should have and so on and so forth. I think I was pretty lucky not to have the group discussion thing. I wasn't that nervous after a while, because the interviewers were really nice. Except for the third one, he just observed and didn't say a word.

"Make yourself comfortable," they said.

They were really smart in their formal attire, all suited up ;D but they smiled. So we just talked.

The only guy in our group sat next to me, I don't know his name ; - ; he was so adorable! He wanted to become a gynaecologist/obstetrician and deliver babies because he wanted to have the feeling of being the first to hold the baby when it comes into the world. And he teaches taekwondo, he's black belt. I was like.

You darling thing. Come I bring you home.

HAHAHAHA

But that was inside my mind, cannot say out loud... xD

I smiled a lot to myself. I hope they didn't find it weird. I try to make a straight face and keep it in but it comes out anyway.

And I laughed quite a fair bit. D:

I was talking about someone being sick then he said, it's such a serious thing why are you laughing? I replied because that someone gave me the inspiration to become a doctor. ;D

LIKE. A. BOSS.

Or not.

I told them I felt really lucky to be there because we were sesat-ed for a while. Whatever the outcome, being there was enough.

Because, I'm good enough. :)

as the kellogs tiger says, i'm grrrrrreat.

The orchestra show was great! It was fun to go with the Alex Leong :D I met a few other people as well, but the only one I remember is Shaun. :)
Ugh, why is the MPO so good.
At first I was like "Hey I remember that double bass guy, the chief violinist and the long haired celloist!" But then I remembered the orchestra is made up the same people and won't change anyway so. So.... = . =
The harpist was cute.
Hahahaha.
They played mostly American works that day, with one Mozart "Toy Symphony" and a Rimsky-Korsakov piece as well. And that famous theme song Rise of the Valkyries! (: NOW I know its name hahaha.
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Today I got my SPM results.
I was more nervous about what to wear than what I'd get hahahaha! All As, with one A- for Moral. = . =
Leanne and Hema did well! :) Yes joo did Leanne ;D
Wei Xuan doesn't want to tell me what she got ; - ; but I'm sure she did great too. :)
That's it for today I guess? My writing mojo has gone for a holiday :D
xxx
OI CAT. Get a chatbox, you ass. :P

locked.

You know the feeling when you're looking at someone and the other looks back and then you guys don't avert your eyes?
Just lock gazes for a bit.
hee.
xxx
It's an hour past midnight and the night is so cold due to the rain since morning.
The cat is going crazy, jumping here and there. TRYING TO SCARE ME ARE YOU.
:p
Got an orchestra performance to look forward to tomorrow! :) Tell you all about it when I get back.

the little things.

买了菜 她跟他慢慢的炒着菜
Mai le cai / ta gen ta man man de chao zhe cai
Bought some food, she slowly cooks a meal with him

他为她赶回家走得快
Ta wei ta an hui jia zou de kuai
Because of her, he quickly returns home

爱无处不在 可是呼之却不来
Ai wu chu bu zai ke shi hu zhi que bu lai
Love is ever-present, but when calling for it, it doesn't come

小阳台 她拿走死掉的小盆栽
Xiao yang tai tan a zou si diao de xiao pen zai
On the balcony, she takes away the dead potted plants

他对着啤酒杯等下载
Ta dui zhe pi jiu bei deng xia zai
He's drinking beer waiting for a download

爱无处不在 可是到处有悲哀
Ai wu chu bu zai ke shi dao chu you bei ai
Love is ever-present, but sadness is everywhere

爱在大街上小路上每个人海
Ai zai da jie shang xiao lu shang mei ge ren hai
Love is in the main streets, in the small streets, in the midst of the crowds of people

谁却爱在小岛上不愿离开
Shei que ai zai xiao dao shang bu yuan li kai
Who goes back to love on a small island, unwilling to leave

难道爱在不该爱的时候才爱
Nan dao ai zai bu gai ai de shi hou cai ai
How is it that when love isn't supposed to be there, love is there

就算百步以外总有爱在 爱在
Jiu suan bai bu yi wai zong you ai zai ai zai
Even if it is one hundred steps away, love is still there, love is there

我爱在黄昏看谁的刘海
Wo ai zai huang hun kan shei de liu hai
My love is there, looking at whose bangs in the evening

你爱在清早打谁的领带
Ni ai zai qing zao da shei de ling dai
Your love is there, tying whose neck tie in the morning

我们都要爱偏偏无法同在
Wo men dou yao ai pian pian wu fa tong zai
We want love but never end up with it

不能明白 只能够期待
Bu neng ming bai zhi neng gou qi dai
Can't understand it, we can only look forward to it

爱无处不在
Ai wu chu bu zai
Love is ever-present

那是爱 到头来也发现这是爱
Na shi ai dao tou lai ye fa xian zhe shi ai
That is love, in the end I realized this is love

流泪的 微笑的 都是爱
Liu lei de wei xiao de dou shi ai
Crying, smiling, it's still love

管它好与坏 总是呼之却不来
Guan ta hao yu huai zong shi hu zhi que bu lai
Took care of it well but it still turned bad, still calling for love but it doesn't come

雪花白 永远都渴望看桃花开
Xue hua bai yong yuan dou ke wang kan tao hua kai
The snowflake's whiteness, I always wished to see the peach tree blossom

梁山伯辜负了祝英台*
Liang Shan Bo gu fu le Zhu Ying Tai*
Liang Shan Bo let down Zhu Ying Tai*

在何年何代 总是到处有悲哀
Zai he nian he dai zong shi dao chu you bei ai
At whatever year, whatever era, sadness is still everywhere

爱在阳光下 烛光下 每点尘埃
Ai zai yang guang xia zhu guang xia mei dian chen ai
Love is under the sunshine, under the candle light, every speck of dust

谁却爱在黑暗里不愿离开
Shei que ai zai hei an li bu yuan li kai
Who goes back to love in the darkness, unwilling to leave

难道爱在不该爱的时候才爱
Nan dao ai zai bu gai ai de shi hou cai ai
How is it that when love isn't supposed to be there, love is there

就算百步以外总有爱在 爱在
Jiu suan bai bu yi wai zong you ai zai ai zai
Even if it is one hundred steps away, love is still there, love is there

我爱在黄昏看谁的刘海
Wo ai zai huang han kan shei de liu hai
My love is there, looking at whose bangs in the evening

你爱在清早打谁的领带
Ni ai zai qing zao da shei de ling dai
Your love is there, tying whose neck tie in the morning

我们都要爱偏偏无法同在
Wo men dou yao ai pian pian wu fa tong zai
We want love but never end up with it

不能明白 只能够期待
Bu neng ming bai zhi neng gou qi dai
Can't understand it, we can only look forward to it

爱无处不在
Ai wu chu bu zai
Love is ever-present

从来微风都靠树枝摇摆
Cong lai wei feng dou kao shu zhi yao bai
The gentle breeze always depended on swaying of the tree branch

从来种子都靠春泥破开
Cong lai zhong zi dou kao chun ni po kai
The seeds always depended on spring soil to help it grow

所有人世间的美好都存在
Suo you ren shi jian de mei hao dou cun zai
All of the world's beauty exists

就算看不到都依然存在
Jiu suan kan bu dao dou yi ran cun zai
Even if you can't see it, it still exists

在意料之外
Zai yi liao zhi wai
It exists outside of expectations

我的女孩 你快走过来
Wo de nu hai ni kuai zou guo lai
My girl, quickly come over

爱在期待 (爱在 爱在)
Ai zai qi dai (ai zai ai zai)
Love is in anticipation (love is there, love is there)

爱无处不在
Ai wu chu bu zai
Love is ever-present

我们无处不在 爱
Wo men wu chu bu zai ai
Our ever-present love

我爱在黄昏看谁的刘海
Wo ai zai huang hun kan shei de liu hai
My love is there, looking at whose bangs in the evening

你爱在清早打谁的领带
Ni ai zai qing zao da shei de ling dai
Your love is there, tying whose neck tie in the morning

我们都要爱偏偏无法同在
Wo men dou yao ai pian pian wu fa tong zai
We want love but never end up with it

不能明白 只能够期待
Bu neng ming bai zhi neng gou qi dai
Can't understand it, we can only look forward to it

我爱在楼下找谁的门牌
Wo ai zai lou xia zhao shei de men pai
My love is downstairs looking for whose house number

你爱在途上靠谁的胸怀
Ni ai zai tu shang kao shei de xiong huai
Your love is on the way depending on whose mind

我们都要爱偏偏分开无奈
Wo men dou yao ai pian pian fen kai wu nai
We want love but end up helplessly separating

不能明白 只能够期待
Bu neng ming bai zhi neng gou qi dai
Can't understand it, we can only look forward to it

爱无处不在
Ai wu chu bu zai
Love is ever-present

*Liang Shan Bo and Zhu Ying Tai is a Chinese Opera story based on the Chinese classic story of the Butterfly Lovers, it is almost like a Chinese version of Romeo and Juliet.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butterfly_Lovers
xxx
Khalil Fong - Ai Zai
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I am completely in love with your lyrics.

had a great day

Went out on Saturday with Huan Hee. :D
It was great! We first went to Midvalley to get her skinny jeans from Cache Cache, which is kind of a long story in itself xD The store was really cute, poppy and full of colour. I'd love to go back, despite Huan Hee being pissed at them.
Hahaha.
I was walking around on my own first; I passed this store and accidentally made eye contact with a cute guy working in there. I passed Guardian because I was looking for mascara and comparing the prices of Eclipse mints at a few places. RM5.20 there by the way. Then this pretty promoter for Qutie Coat came up to me and started speaking to me in Mandarin. (My biggest weakness would be someone speaking to me in a language other than English.)
I was stunned, she chatted with me all the way using Mandarin although mine was stunted. She took my hand and started applying the whitening cream thing on my skin gently. :D~
To my surprise my hand were two-coloured after she cleaned my hand! My face was like O.O WOW HAHAHA SO WEIRD, O.O, she was telling me this is a semi-permanent coat that deflects UV rays, SPF and all that. I thanked her and made my way to the LG North Court because that's where Huan Hee'd meet me. I rubbed at my whiter hand to see if the coat would come off but it didn't budge. (it faded a bit at the end of the day though.)
I remembered my Eclipse mints mission and checked the price at the Aeon pharmacy. I walked in like a crab, checking the racks at the cashier stand. RM5.50 :O then I noticed the cashier lady smiling at me, I laughed awkwardly, said thank you and ran out of the store hahahaha!
Huan Hee this is what I do without you :O
Then, she took me to makan porridge at I Love Yoo! It was pretty good, and seriously sangat cheap. RM4 for thick porridge and yao zha kuih, they were filling.
Huan Hee was on a recognizing people roll, it was so funny. It's like "HEY SO-AND-SO!" "Oh hey you work here!" "oh that was my junior, one year younger."
Wah 8D i didn't see anyone i knew hahahaha.
And then we passed the store where I said there was a cute guy, and I told her.
"HH HH just now I passed this store and there was this reeeeeally cute guy working in there!"
"Oh, my friend works here, I think I'll say hi."
LOLLLLLLL HER FRIEND
So malu.
Hahahahahahahaha.
We made our way to KL Sentral using the KTM, which was so slow: 3 trains passed on the other side before ours came. Hahahaha! Huan Hee was so happy when the train came, after a not-so-very-quiet cursing session behind an advertisement board.
We made our way to the monorail and went on to Sungai Wang, one of my favourite places.
Went around window shopping, stopping here and there to buy small stuff, watched Korean cosmetics CFs, then before we knew it it was time to go.
OH YEAH, there was free Cornetto ice cream given out that day!!!
Huan Hee took strawberry, I took chocolate and we had an extra chocolate ice cream we didn't know what to do with. So I was like,
"I'm gonna give this to a random person 8D"
And then I did!
xD
He was like, "for ME?"
aww :D

play cops and robbers, cops and robbers.

Cops and Robbers - The Hoosiers
Nabilah would love this song heee.
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The pay phones at KDU don't work at all, they're all dead. D:
Life in college is great. There's this guy that reminds me SO MUCH of slow, just because of the aura he has! D: they're probably the same height-wise though.
Everything else isn't really the same. Still, I'm drawn.
Cops and robbers with hearts ehh. ;D

put up your barricades, continue your charade

Money To Be Made - The Hoosiers
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Goodbye Mr AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA was by them and i heard their other songs on Live on Abbey Road. :D WTF. They're really good.
And the cute accent helps. Hahaha
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This is what i've been feeling lately, neither happy nor sad.
Smiling for others, not because i'm truly happy.
Is that bad?
Maybe I've just fallen into a routine without a special someone to confide in, like nano nano or private fly number 1.
I'm scared.
I'm nervous.
I'm aching.
But I'm not sad.

i can't believe it

SH*T. SH*TSH*TSH*TSH*T
(The King's Speech)
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I forgot about an assignment!! D: i hope the teacher takes it in....
...............
/cryingdramatically

:D

I am Sailor Moon, the champion of justice!
In the name of the Moon, I will punish you!
I will right wrongs and triumph over evil and that means YOU!
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HOHOHOHO trigonometry.
Ask me what the cosine graph is. :D

the one that you see in your dreams

No More Wishing - Hayley Taylor
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They say that if you see someone in your dreams,
you really want to see that person.
Why else would they be hanging around in your subconscious right.
:)
I saw him, after all this time.
I don't remember much of the dream. Just a vague smile.
x
Maybe that's why she saw me?
x
Gong Xi Fa Cai! :D

another day another year

It was my birthday some 10 days ago. :)
The thing about having your birthday so early in the year is that once you start a fresh year, no one knows it's your day. I do so love being surprised by lovely people.
AND MUN YEE ESPECIALLY
She gave me a bottle of beer hahahahahhaa :'D
I was so touched.
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After college, I went to Aoyama in Hartamas for dinner. I went there once, and the set lunches were affordable and so good. Because of ma we already knew the staff quite well. And we only went there once wtf. XD
So these people treat us really well! We smiled at the waiters and waitress (she was real nice), and i ate cha soba (cold soba noodles) for the first time! I've always wanted to try it :'D it was so GOOD. UMAIII SO. TOTEMO OISHII DESU.
We got free ice cream because ma insisted XD so we had wasabi, sesame, and Ocean Blue flavoured ice cream. OMG! So delicious yet unique.
.....Wasabi ice cream makes me laugh XD want to see me laugh for no reason? This is what you feed me.
Ocean Blue is a sort of salt-ish ice cream! Yet it surprised me and turned out really amazing.

Then they gave me.........
a fan :'D

Want to see it?


Huh? Huh??

Really? I'm gonna open it!

TEEHEE

I love it so much. It's so pretty. Thank you Aoyama. (:
We went home, and then we had cake. Baked classic blueberry cheese cake, one of my ultimate favourites :'D Aughh thank you guys. All your wishes made my day too. (:
Looking forward to next year's. Hahahaha.

let your heart lead blindly

Let Go - Dave Lichens
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Wandering around is such a such a such a PLEASURE 8D
Absolutely love it. I can watch people and sometimes catch their eye, form a weird acknowledgement kind of kinship then never meet again.
Though I always hope we meet again for those weird kinship things. I always hope for sweet unrealistic serendipities. xD
I once saw this guy, passed by him quite a few times too. Soon we recognized each other.. but then we were directly opposite each other in Kinokuniya so I smiled at him.
He smiled back! And I averted my eyes, so embarrassed. XD wtf. Then I curiously asked the lady beside me who's looking at this book called, Looking For Mr Right or something. Hahahahah and accidentally started a conversation.
So I didn't see him after that.
): /cue awwwww

you mean more than you should mean

No More Wishing - Hayley Taylor

why.
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I'm studying now :) in college.
So fast! :P so nerdy. hahahaha
It's going great,and being a college girl is.. i don't know.
It's making me look different D: I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT
Hahahahha
And I met someone I met two years ago, in the same class. He has that quality where i'm inexorably, unexplicably, whatwhat-bly drawn to him. I want to get to know him, talk to him. It was the same thing two years back, but he was easier with his smiles back then.
Now he... broods. WTH hahahahaha
An enigma.
Now how about that.

cuddle up

cats sleep so adorably. they curl up and retain heat so efficiently, tail, paws, legs perfectly arranged into a ball.
KEKEKEKE
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College life so far is interesting. Classes are super disjointed so i have small holes in my timetable but it keeps me in the college the whole bloody day!
And there are so many people!
*You should know that the way i communicate with strangers, is really quite disconcerting. I have this habit where i stare into the other's eyes before i talk to them at all. Once I talk though I get flustered and try to keep up the eye contact but look away often.
Point is I stare a lot. XD*
Sometimes i have a moment with some people, that amazing moment where you lock gazes and hold it for one second too long.
:'D I do so love those moments.
SHO YEA
How are all of you?
How's life after SPM?
Or life in general? Since I don't know who reads this dead blog anymore.xD

i feel like

I want to be a bloody recluse.
Write.
Draw.
Cry.
Laugh.
Play music the whole bloody day long and wail.
But the outside world is beautiful too, coaxing me out.
The beauty pales, comes in second to her smile.

Is it so hard to believe that she's gone.
That everyone looks back fondly and nothing more.
Why am i so caught up.

Should i delete her number. her texts.
her pictures. that video of her where she refuses to swear mildly as written in the script.

That stupid turning point where i received the message second saying she won't make it.
She won't?
She didn't.

xxx

on days like these i write. i run through all my doubts.
The things i never did,never said.
It's good for my writing side.
Yeah. optimism ftw.

how close we really are

"you don't matter to me.
nor you.
nor you."
deleted.

Is this where i stand in your life.

My sight is blurred by you, only you.
I'm sorry, i miss you.
I loved you so.

So much, nobody else comes close. I'm so sorry.