Friday, April 30, 2010

I don't need anything but you with me.

Valentine - Kina Grannis
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The video is really cute :D
STUPID GIRLS D: why tear some poor guy up because you won't accept his heart? XD
Thank you Huan Hee for introducing this singer to me :DD
Her voice is really melodious, honest and bouncy. Somehow. XD
And she's so incredibly pretty. You can download the song free at her website, http://www.kinagrannis.com/ if you like it. :)
Ooh, I hope one day I'd find that person with the other half of a broken heart.
xxx
Happy Labour Day, workers!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Chang Min

PUHAAAAH.
He's so cute. :D
Although he doesn't speak a word of English, he's proven to me that music really is universal. :D He prefers ballads and a little jazz, and he sings.
Apparently his voice is really good. I want to hear it so bad, ASHKJFSKJB.
He's so adorable! :D he has dyed yellow hair, but his eyebrows remain dark coloured and he pulls it off well. Surprisingly. XD
His hair flops down the front, and covers most of his forehead but doesn't get into his eyes. He's ALWAYS smiling, even though he doesn't understand a thing when we talk too fast or talk in BM. It's mostly genuine, but sometimes it becomes a confused smile. So cute. :) He's so cute till we don't take notice of his body, but it's really well-built. Amazing shoulder blades, just the right height, oh broad shoulders and a bit on the slender side. He'll get flustered and embarassed if we call him cute. Hahahahah it's so funny. (:
He sent me a song, by Wheesung on his album Vocolate I think? And it's so goooodd.
He goes REALLY high, and the tune is really good. :D
I asked him what his 5 favourite songs were, and he told me. I was really happy to find out that he liked mellow kind of ballads! I dunno why. I went home to check them out. ;D then he asked me, and when I thought he had forgotten about me having two more songs to list for him, he prompted me. ...I was happily surprised. Heh *blushes*
Hahahahhahaha.
I'm trying to learn basic Korean to help him learn English. :) I think I got the basics down, but I need all the names of things now :D I'll work at it!
Wish me luck :D

OIIII, mutt.

Hahahahahha my dad actually used this line on Kitty. She always goes ganas and scratches the chair and runs everywhere like an F1 car. Pa doesn't like that she scratches the chair, so he scolds her again and again but it never gets through.

HAHAHA.

The line works, though. Temporarily. XD

xxx

CF tomorrow is at a new church, for the first time since I was Form 1 and maybe beyond! This is very memorable. :D

OHH, wish us luck. I hope we make an impression. :D

xxx

I taught someone in tuition how to wish on a star, for fun. :D he laughed, but he wished.
Try it! :D wish upon the first star you see.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

When I find you, I'll find me.

When You Find Me - Joshua Radin and Maria Taylor
xxx
Sunday will be a night I remember. :)
It was awesome.
I saw my first kiss on stage!
AWW, so sweet.
And then I saw two guys almost kiss.
AWW, lagi sweet. Hahahahaha

Friday, April 23, 2010

Breathe, just breathe.

Anna Nalick - Breathe
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Should I be excited for this Sunday? :D
I am. Unnaturally excited.
But it looks like Huan Hee has to go to Kelantan.
:(
I think she'd be great there, but I feel bad that she'd have to miss it as she's a senior and she's one of the organisers. Who wouldn't want to taste the fruit of their labour right?
But she'll be okay.

I hope. I'm gonna see her tonight :)
xxx
Today, Alia told me she was getting closer to me.
And I thought, what?
"Closer as in heart? Why yes, I think so too :D"
And that's exactly what I said. Hahahahaha then I realized she was talking about positions in class. Hahahahhaha.
xxx
So the pressure's been off me recently. It's great. :D
Pressure 1: CF takde venue.
A person from a church nearby contacted me today. (I brought my phone to school, forgot to put it on silent mode, and it rang during Pn Jeet's class. Hahahaha) He sms-ed that he'd like to see how they can help us CF people :D
Pressure 2: Paperwork
AUGHHHHH. It's a lot of work.
But, they seem to have settled it already. Yay.
Pressure 3: English Club station games
Lotsa people involved yay! Just need to discuss clues. That's the fun part.
Pressure 4: Homework
Working at it. I promised myself.
Pressure 5: Friends, or maybe not?
Self-explanatory.

Pressure 6: Drawing block. HAHAHA.
xxx
But I've taken a rest and feel all pumped up now. I've breathed. :)

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I'd cheat destiny just to be near you.


Anna Nalick - Wreck of The Day
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So. Hi :D
I think Anna Nalick is extremely pretty. Look at those cheeks, that small pert nose, those full lips so full of expression, the dark colour of her hair against her fair skin and those honest EYES.
Plus she writes amazing songs with the most haunting, dissonant, yet harmonious chords and lyrics.
I would kill to have talent like hers.
TEEHEE :D no lah, I won't kill. Maybe by some other measure.
xxx
Are my posts hard to read? Because someone once told me it's like English Literature when the person came back from a long day and started reading. Errrr.... sorry then :D
xxx
I'm sorry for ditching school today, Leanne SAW. D:
xxx
I can tell you honestly that I've wished upon a star.
And I wished for...........................
Something. :D I can't tell you. It won't work then.
Starlight, star bright
First star I see tonight,
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have the wish I wish tonight.
OHH :D
Now you know how to wish. I always look for stars in the night sky. It's relaxing and it gives me hope. :) Nobody does that much.
xxx
OH BY THE WAY. I forgot to decribe Jackson.
*SLAP* I mean Johnson.
He's really tall and muscular. I'd assume that tall and muscular guys generally have short hair, but this guy has long hair, up to his chin, or a bit longer. His eyes speak of many things, but are mostly happy and genuine. I think he's the type of person that is strong, and stands up for what he believes in. His voice isn't TOO deep, but has a nice edge and depth that sort of.. pulls you in. Not many people have that power :D
He has warm, lean and strong hands.
I think he prefers green.
Oh and he wears full frame glasses, you know the type :D the black squarish urban kind of thing. He pulls it off quite well.
I don't know much XD I've only talked to him for half an hour, if you count both weeks.
But you get the picture yes? :D
xxx
I hope to see you soon :D SQUEE.

Everything in between

Feels like a BIG, FAT, F*CKING FARCE.

*slams the door*

xxx

I don't know how she does it. How she juggled everything in between.
I'm dying inside.
I'm not here, I'm not there.
Yet I talk and laugh as if nothing is wrong, like I can't already feel the rift beginning to grow between me and the both of them because,
Because both of them are on different sides.
DIFFERENT, OPPOSING, F*CKING SIDES
Why can't we just call it quits? It's OVER, for Pete's sake.
It's BEEN that way since a few years ago, HELLO.
Look at me, somebody, and just be in my shoes for one moment.
Can you handle being the mediator? Can you handle being friends with both sides, and yet not take sides? Can you handle only talking to one side and then talk to the other side and not talk together like we used to?
Can you take the pressure of growing gulfs between you and the world? Like there's nobody suitable or free enough to take a moment and listen to you and your stupid stories of the day, so you just keep it inside, not sharing the happiness, not doubling it?
Can you handle that both of them also have their own lives, thoughts, cliques, they've moved on and you're still clinging on for God knows what reason?
I'm the STUPIDEST, most NAIVE girl on Earth.
For f*ck's sake.
And cranky Auntie Mary that comes once a month isn't helping.
I'm sorry for being angry. It's not Auntie Mary's fault. It's not their fault.
It's just... they're victims of circumstance, of the action of giving up.
They don't work at it anymore, and they're complacent. They're okay with it.
So why can't I be okay with it AIHFIBSFBSHNLKDNG
*sigh*
At least when she was here I could talk to her about it.
She told me everything she felt, how frustrated she was, how the isolated one kept evading her questions on this topic. But she was ever the optimist, and kept going for it. Even when she was sick, hahaha. So dedicated.
I'm sorry. :) Disregard this whole entire post. I was... weak. I need to be stronger, I can do this!
You can too. :D if anything, take a good look at this then REMEMBER, there's always someone for you. Look harder. And remember that you can ALWAYS do it, just believe in yourself.
Just... there are some moments in life where you need someone else to help you along.
*sigh*..... okay, angry moment over. *slaps self*
Bai :)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

"Damn, girl."

I'll take that as a compliment. :)
xxx
So, I'm proud to say.....

I MADE IT

YEAHHHH
I made it onto Alia's Daily Reads roll. I'm touched. :'D

xxx
I've recently been going early to Karangan tuition on Sundays. And not for tuition, but for the remnants of Creative Writing class and for the teacher of said class. I miss Ms Dee J :( I used to go for her class and ENJOY it.
I love writing, so very much. It's such a versatile, playdough-like thing that you can shape anyway you like it, in any language. Some people can't really write, but I think it's because they don't let themselves... go.
Hmm.

I wanted to bring my essays so that teacher could read it during her half hour break, but she hasn't been able to make it lately. She has a friend who alternates with her whenever she tak boleh, so he's been filling in for her.

And I gotta say, cutest English Creative Writing teacher EVERRRRRR :D

Hahahahhahaha.
I value people's criticism, especially my dad's. :D So I just went ahead and introduced myself, and gave my essay to him to read two weeks ago. (untuk ujian punya. I wrote about my first picnic by the sea. :) ) He said it was good stuff, and showed me a part where I went wrong. WHOO HOO :D That's the best thing he could've done. Normally, people would just go on and on about how descriptive it was and how good the essay is, not showing me where I went wrong, which part they thought was awkward. I mean, I just know a few good words and string them together D: I don't really like praise, because I never know how to respond.... it's like they say "but you're so good!" and I just mumble a shy "thank you..? :)" Ugh, if only I knew how to react, what to say.
But oh well. I guess my talent lies in my hands. XD cheh, perasan.
Last week pun I brought a piece that I was really proud of to show Ms DJ... but she couldn't make it that week as well.
So.. I showed him the piece. :)
It's about missing someone, and how that person has had a great influence in your life. I wrote two and stapled them together, two about two different people.
He read both. He came out, scared the shit out of me when he suddenly appeared behind me, with a rather wistful yet happy, reminiscent expression.
I wondered why, why does he have that face on?
He told me it's really touching, and well-written. I forget things, but thank you for saying well-written. :) I've never had someone say that to me before.
So.. think about it. What do you really want to do before you die?
Well.. I've thought about it many times before.
D: WHYYYYYYYYYYYY
Oh, *smiles* because I've faced many deaths in my life.
*STONES* D8 Oh, oh *flails around* I'm sorry.
Why? XD
Because, I know how it must feel. (and his is probably x10 D:) So... I'm sorry.
*moves to touch his arm, then stops midway and pulls back, hesitantly*
Where he proceeds to extend a hand. I shook it, with feeling.
xxx
He's a really great guy. I keep confusing his name and keep calling him Jackson in my head, then I automatically slap myself and correct it: JOHNSON LAHHH
D: mong mong cha cha. Hahahahahhaha :D

Thursday, April 15, 2010

I'll see you in my dreams.

(1, 2, 3, 4)

Though the days are long
Twilight sings a song
Of a happiness that used to be
Soon my eyes will close (soon my eyes will close)
Soon I'll find repose
And in dreams, you're always near to me

I'll see you in my dreams
Hold you in my dreams
Someone took you out of my arms
Still, I feel the thrill of your charms
Lips that once were mine
Tender eyes that shine
They will light our way tonight
I'll see you in my dreams

In the dreary gray
Of another day
You are far away and I am blue
Still I hope and pray (still I hope and pray)
Through each weary day
For it brings the night and dreams of you

I'll see you in my dreams
Hold you in my dreams
Someone took you out of my arms
Still, I feel the thrill of your charms
Lips that once were mine
Tender eyes that shine
They will light our way tonight
I'll see you in my dreams
They will light our lonely way tonight
I'll see you in my dreams
Hmmm....

xxx
What a lovely, lovely song.
Especially by Ingrid Michaelson. :) :DDDDDDD I know, dah gila over her.
Wait for the song to load; I know it'll take a bit long but it's worth it. Oh so worth it! :)
The laidback duet is done with this other guy, paired with the ukulele and is recorded like it's through a phone, so it creates this playful, buoyant feeling of rindu. And the chords, OMG, music to my ears. I love love love it. :D Thank you Isham Jones. ( he wrote it... IN THE TWENTIES 8D)
Whoa. :)
xxx
The photoshoots were less tiring than last year's, because now we have Darren :'D hahahha we didn't have to fit it all in 2 days. Everybody was so active, running around and arranging people, and the students made everyone's day. They weren't defiant and in fact teased us all a little bit as well XD hahahahha! The Form 4s this year really worked together with us, and they are just awesome, random people. The megaphone also was a huge feature in our day; everyone made announcements whether serious or funny. Hahahaha :D
It was awesome. :D

I'm in love with how you feel.

Have you ever hugged someone and it just felt... right?
:)
I have. Three times.
Just the feel of someone else's body against yours, the person's warmth slowly reaching and enveloping your heart. Making you feel happy.
The way they just fit into your arms. Their hands all in the right places, like they can read your mind or something.
And then the closeness of the whole hug, it's like we're off in our own world and not giving a second look to anyone around us. The tightness of the squeeze is the easiest place to spot a bad hug; it musn't be too loose or too tight, just to bring the other body very close to yours yet not crushing them, you know.
Chandni, Alex and Ah Fong. They give the best hugs.
I miss the best of all. I have, for two years already. It's not like she can hug back from the bed. XD
xxx
Anyone Else But You - The Moldy Peaches, from Juno.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

So long to ever after, so long to you.

It's amazing ainnit, both contexts of that line.
So long, good bye.
So long, so far away.
Ingrid Michaelson - So Long
xxx
SO, yesterday I had tuition. Yesterday was Monday by the way. :)
And surprisingly, I made two new friends :D
Hahahahahaha!
I like doing random kindnesses. I like helping people, no reason why. It's a good thing to do, and it makes people's day. Unexpected smiles make me happy.
Like my own brand of heroin, ahem. XD
When I went to tuition last Friday and found this really simple but beautiful necklace, I took it and reasoned that it belonged to someone of the really big BM class right before my class. Most of them would turn up next Monday, so I kept it. The necklace was just a pearly heart pendant that reflected the colours of the rainbow on a chain that looked worn and well loved. The clasp was broken. Therefore, can we fix it?
YES WE CAN :D
I took it to Hartamas Shopping Centre, to an accessory booth where I hoped they could fix clasps and sell simple black bands. There was an Indian guy tending the stall; it belonged to his sister and I asked him if he could fix the clasp. He said he could! :D
This character was really... interesting. He had several piercings on his ears and wore silver that shone against his smooth skin. Well-dressed, slightly feminine and very friendly, I was immediately taken and related the story to him with a smile in my voice. We talked and talked, until a woman and her four children, 2 in strollers came along, and I made way while he was still putting the new clip on. Her little girl that looked 4 or 5 years old wanted piercings already, and he was to judge whether she was ready.
OMG, I remember when I pierced my ears. We had to go through a really pretty park to go to the stall, and I did mine without much fuss. My first pair of earrings were hearts. I remember Mandy's reaction more though, hahaha! She pierced one side, cried, and ran away. Then she had to come back for the second ear. Hahahhahaha XD
When we parted ways, he said what I did was nice and patted my arm lightly with a parting goodbye and a little lilt in his endearment for me, "sweetie".
When I woke up Monday morning, I was just bouncing with excitement to go for tuition. School took FOREVER to finish. I walked with a spring in my step going to Desa to makan, and when I reached I made the funniest decision ever, hahahhaha!
I ordered a big bowl of "drunk chicken noodles" which was herbal chicken soup with a healthy dose of Chinese rice wine. (The auntie had cautioned me beforehand that this dish contained wine. OH auntie. XD) It was new, this smell and taste to my taste buds and I lapped it all up, savouring the taste of the wine and the chicken soup with the mee sua that just absorbs the flavour. It was amazing. But in my subconscious mind, I thought, this bowl of noodles has way too much alcohol content in it HAHAHA. The smell of wine was a little overpowering, I felt like I could breathe it in.
Sure enough, after eating, I felt a bit lightheaded. My sister commented on my red face when I told Pa, and said I cepat mabuk HAHAHA
I went home and dozed off, suddenly feeling very warm and happy all over. Pa yelled for me to get up 15 minutes before tuition, and I hurried, dressed and ran out the door to hopefully get to tuition as early as possible. You know, because I wanted to return the necklace. I planned to go in front and announce the missing necklace to the class.
Still feeling a little lightheaded, I stumbled a bit on the way up the stairs to the tuition centre. I could feel my heart beating away in my CHEEKS, I swear. It was so funny, I must have been red. I could feel heat just emanating from my body like some kind of broadcasting centre. The fact that the class was Physics didn't help XD hahahaha
Distracted by my lightness, I headed to the front without much fear. I said "Ummmm hi :D did anyone lose this?" I showed it to the girls in front, and then some guys were like showing signs that they recognized it. OF ALL THINGS, a guy enters the door, looks at it and was like, "OH HIII that's mine! Thank you, thank you so much"
My WHUUUUT face must've been a sight to see. XD I forgot to tell him about the fixed clasp, but I figured he'd notice someday. I asked him if he wanted a new band, but he refused. His smile was so sweet :)
So I ambled on to my seat, not caring much for the people I passed as I just wanted to feel the pulse in my cheek in a sitting position. After an hour or so, the feeling of giddiness went away, and I started thinking about that guy the necklace belonged to. Was he going to leave it at that? Or maybe say hi the next time we pass?
Physics came and went. He left for home, but as he passed me, he looked me in the eye, smiled widely and said thank you again.
And I'm touched :D
xxx
The second friend I made.... wait, it was more like she made friends with me! :D
Eyu Huan Hee, that is her name. She has Thai, Hokkien, and Kelantan all in her bloodline, and her English is surprisingly good :D She invited me to an International Relationship Day to raise funds for homeless children, or rather orphans; specifically Stepping Stones Orphanage.

8D
If you have visited littlethingsinaheart, you'd know that I've been there before so my interest was peaked. :D
The event is in 2 weeks time! Find the event on facebook, it's under KB's IR Night. The theme is Blast from the Past, and only RM25 per person. Kalau nak beli 10 one shot, it's only RM20 per person! They have games and performances for the whole night all in the name of charity. The venue, if I tak salah is the Confucian School Hall in KL; however buses are provided :D And dress code, as always, is smart casual.
TEEHEE ADVERTISING
We just chatted and chatted and found a friend in each other! I also talked more to the princess! Yayyy.
She's a really nice girl. She's athletic, really tall and tanned. She has a wide smile that manages to be upward and downward, and warm eyes. :D I like her.
I hope I can go. But the problem would be the baju............ XD
xxx
I forgot what I wanted to say. Then I remembered I have Sejarah homework.
OH WELP
Gonna finish it now then.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Remember him?

"Hey, pretty mama."
xxx
Hahahhaha :D still remember this manly blond dude? I miss watching him.
He's so silly. Yet he never gives up, does he?
He played when Cartoon Network topped Disney.
Now, the new shows are all over the top, unfunny and just flop.
Except Chowder and Ben 10, of course. :)
Maybe I should give them a chance and try watching the new shows, huh.
xxx
You know what's so awesome about Pokemon? The games and the shows?
Their epic theme songs never EVER change. I bet when we all turn 50 someday, they'll be playing Pokemon Uranium-12 and we'd still be humming that catchy tense soundtrack when we fight other Pokemon. Hahahah.
I CHOOSE YOU! :D Ash Ketchum WOOT.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

It takes two floors to make a storey.

Meh. :D Life is Wonderful - Jason Mraz
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I've been filling my head up with Jason Mraz. Burying myself in his lyrics. Carried away by his playful and sad melodies. Uplifted by his cheeky charismatic voice.

Did you know he could do OPERA :D

YES YES HE CAN

Hahahahha. (:
Oh, he's so wonderful.
xxx
I booked tickets for the first time! :D hahahaha!
I'm so excited to see if they really will reserve 3 tickets for me tomorrow.
xxx
I drove to Temerloh from Lanchang yesterday, on the highway. At first my position wasn't really adjusted properly, so my handling was a little awkward and stilted. NECK SAKIT OI :D but only for a while.
It was so EXHILARATING. So FUN. I didn't panic and all, I don't see what there is to panic about hahahaha. I was doing a comfortable speed and drifted occasionally. Tapi overall okay :D
My dad supervised the whole affair. He was the one who needed to go to Temerloh after all, to prepare a timber sawmill for auditing.
Timber businesses (as I've observed) are normally handled and passed down in the family. So the family of that particular sawmill was wonderful! They were teasing, nice, hospitable and had the best Mild Nescafe coffee ever. (My first hahahahha)
Then I drove back to Lanchang. Now that I adjusted the seat properly, I had a better grip on the wheel and enjoyed it very much. :D I overtook my first lorry YAYY
xxx
I stopped at a really famous rest stop that everyone stops at to eat on the way up to the Genting road. (I FORGOT THE NAME)
Pa and I went to McDonald's. The first thing I saw was this Ronald McDonald holding chips and a burger in a field of some sort statue greeting everyone who passed through the doors. OMG, OMG, pedo face :DDDDDDDDDD hahahahhahahahhaha

from http://wontdieone.blogspot.com/2007_10_01_archive.html

This looks QUITE CREEPY XD from http://bacin.wordpress.com/2006/10/01/16-orang-gila/

While this one looks like OHAI, you. Ngehehehehe. Hahahaha! XD
His eyebrows slanted slightly too far forward hahaha, so funny. I stared for quite a while, till some other people started staring at me too.
Next time you go up to Genting, say hi for me.

OH YA! Genting Sempah :D