In the blue.

I am, feeling sad again. Mak aih. xxx DIE Ngat Ming for dubbing my blog "like literature"!!!!! XD I've always thought my blog was easy reading! Well. Proved me wrong. XD I RETRACT WHAT I SAID~ Ngat Ming don't die on me :) xxx

I have had so many encounters with near-death. And death. Like today, Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson have left the world. Rest in peace. I used to stay up till 1 am to watch Charlie's Angels the old series on TV2. I loved it. And who could forget Michael Jackson, the oh so controversial one? He had a killer moonwalk, great moves, was black and white in his entire lifetime, sang Thriller which is still the highest, most laris selling album out there, and don't forget his signature EE-HEEEEEEE~ :D So all I have to say is rest in peace and we love you. xxx We recently bela 5 birds in a pink cage. After 2 weeks or so, today Chloe decided to let them go. OMG disaster wei. Pa took one out, rather easily, and let it fly. It was so beautiful, watching its journey; flapping over to the green tree beyond the boundaries of the condominium. But what happened next? Surely this couldn't be called a disaster? Chloe tried to catch a bird in the cage and took one out rather roughly, since she obviously like all us budak bandar has no experience whatsoever. She ended up accidentally damaging its wing, and it jumped out of her grasp.... .... ....and off the balcony. *HORRIFIEDREMORSEFULFACE* I, was so F*CKING scared. Chloe had such a guilty face on; I didn't have the heart to chastise her. Or even say anything. Damaged wing + a jump off the balcony = .......? We looked down and I saw the bird, unmoving. We stared, with such a great hope that it would just move its head or something. Nothing happened. I helped kill something alive and well, only a scant 5 minutes before we laid hands on it. I helped to kill. I killed. So Chloe and I went down, and checked the "crime scene" out. Out the door: Chloe had a sad face on just like mine. In the lift: it grew a little sadder. Out the lift: Chloe was sobbing. I couldn't believe it either. I felt so bad, and she just stayed at the lift entrance while I went over to see how a dead bird looked like; my overactive mind conjured... images = = I was so scared! I advanced slowly, slowly. And then I realized that there was slight movement; like how I would breathe if something dangerous was approaching. Fast. Shallow. Silent. It was alive? "CHLOE IT'S ALIVE! IT'S ALIVE!" not that I was doing an impersonation of Dr Frankenstein. It was actually okay! It survived the fall and jumped out of our reach. I, in my baju kurung uniform immediately gave chase and it hopped beneath a yellow 4 wheel drive. I was so grateful that it was alive. MAIIIIII gosh. The little bugger kept us downstairs at the car for at least half an hour, just chasing it out of the shelter of the car body and the tyres. GOD the tyres. The rain was gone but the puddles certainly weren't. I went down on my palms and chased it out, finally. It then proceeded to hide behind an old cupboard (because you see, the car was parked near the big refuse disposal area.... but it didn't smell when we went down.) It didn't really fight much by that time, I guess it was tired. As tired as us hopping around the car for so bloody long. I know I don't have the right to be angry at something I almost accidentally killed but... still! It was cornered against the wall. I didn't know what to do, but I reached for the bird head first so that I don't hurt its wing any more than necessary. It worked! I boleh tangkap burung okay? Don't play play. :D hahahaha.

Sure, it lashed out at me and pecked my finger a few times but I got it. I stroked it all the way, feeling its little heart beat frantically and enjoying the warmth such a little body could produce. I then exclaimed to this uncle who has been there watching us suspiciously circling the car from the start, "LOOK uncle we caught a bird!" He was nice :) he gave us a pointer; he said he saw some people spray water from a distance on the bird to keep it cool and less stressed. I tried it at home and it worked XD whoa. Thank you, whoever you are. So remember the first one Pa let go? Well he said we'd have to let another two out to keep the one company and leave one to keep the injured one company. I didn't let two out, but I did let one go. I said *soothingly I hope* to the birds, "I'm not gonna hurt you I'm not gonna hurt you!" but they flapped around still, because you know. I'm a human, not a bird. I must seem like a huge alien out to get them or something, because I hurt one of their friends. So I took 15 minutes catching another bird, head first because it looked like it worked, and then took it out of the cage. It bit me :D I actually had two pink marks on my middle finger because it bit me. Not a peck. A bite. XD So COOL. XD Revenge lah kot. I let it go like how Pa did; the bird looked like it was doing fine and then it didn't swerve in time and hit the neighbouring house's wall head on. I was like. DEEEEEEEEEEENG. And then OH NO did the bird die?! Not again.... and I gazed at it, hoping... and it moved its head! I sure hope it flew away and didn't have a concussion or anything. I am so so so so so sorry, you two. So right now we have 3 birds in residence. It seemed like they were stuck in the cage too long and they forgot how to fly. Mm-hmm. Just like us.

Changed again

I changed my playlist again. The aim is to make you smile. :D

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Ladies and gentlemen.
Today.
I BROKE MY FIRST GUITAR STRING D: D: D:
UHUHUHUHUHU Now I play a 5 string :( my dad will teach me how to put a new one on though. :) anyone up to give me pointers?

Just leave a comment on the CBox. :D

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I paid a visit to the hospital today. I was on 'the kidney floor' and I saw this good looking young dude, maybe around my age. He was tall and skinny.
And sitting on a wheelchair.

And I thought, no one should be in a hospital at that age.

In fact. No one should be in a hospital at all. :(

Hahh.

Good day :) I cannot wait for Monday.
And I bet that first song just makes you wanna crank the volume and shake your groovy thang! :D Hahahahahhaha I believe in miracles! Where're you from, you sexy thing? You sexy thing, you. XD

Hahahahahhaha. Hot Chocolate for you.

Ice Queen

So. You know how I love keeping to myself if I don't know people? Well that's what I do in tuition :) I don't speak unless spoken to or it's English class and everyone has to read.
I was just doodling in my book on Monday after the first lovely class and stayed on for Physics, and the space between me and the chair in front was quite close. This guy was walking and walking like a crab to his seat in my row when he stepped on my slippered foot. Hahahaha.
"SORRY! Sorry sorry sorry.... sorry wo zhen de hen sorry!" I regarded him with a sheepish face and said it's okay, it's okay just as many times XD
I'm not an Ice Queen people D: talk to me and I smile!
I won't bite. :)
Huh. It was quite a shock to take in hahahahha.
After Physics I stayed on for Chemistry, and the dude walked out again and he asked me if I was okay :) and he joked too! Keep your feet in or something like that. I was happy. XD
Mana tahu when he walked in again he kicked my leg XD ahahaha I laughed out loud. :)
He was pretty nice. :)

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English tuition is always fun, especially after Add Math. God Add Math. I do it much better when teacher's not there scaring me though XD Ahahahaha I didn't mean that, he knows his math pretty well. So don't play play XD
Last Wednesday, the tuition class got changed to another one nearest to the entrance. So there was this dude I know by face and he took one look at my sesat face and told me Add Math was in the class. His friend, (rather loud XD) suddenly came along and said that "yes, that is the Add Math class. YES IT IS Don't you believe me? Do you want me to open the door for you--" (because I was always apprehensive when entering late. Especially Add Math. Hahaha) and I opened the door while looking back at the dude, looking probably like a deer in headlights for all I know. I was spooked! XD hahahaha.
"Thank you :)" and then I went into the class and really felt like a deer in headlights.
But hey, he helped me :D
And during Add Math this guy actually asked me for an eraser :D YAY they finally know I'm approachable haha. Although he had this curiously hesitant face.
Anyway.
After Add Math, it was English :D
So when the class was almost ending, about 8.50, the same guy who borrowed my eraser had to come out and write his answer for a question on the board. (His friend is the one who was sesat with me for BM tuition the other day :D)
His paper was blank. Empty. He didn't know what to do so he read his paper again and again like it was gonna spew answers any moment. I watched him, and his friend because I was sitting front row.
Then he looked at me, and I smiled encouragingly (I hope) at him, hoping that he would write on the board. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I enjoy reading their mistakes like it's some inner perverse delight or something but it's really fun to read what they come up with because it's right. Just not quite there yet. :)
He looked at me again and hesitantly asked me if he could borrow my paper..
I said, "I tembak only. Tembak boleh?" He nodded. I gave him my paper :D
So while he was writing, I escaped to the toilet because I had to go. And partially because I was curious to see how my teacher would react. But I wasn't ready. XD
When I came back teacher was reading out and correcting the mistakes already. I waited for the moment he came to the answer (the dude shortened my answer. Smart. ;D) but it was so long!
When it came, he was like this is the grammar that I want and all that XD And he complimented the dude. Then he looked at me, and was like. "Can you improve?"
OHOHO that came unexpectedly. I smiled sheepishly and said yes. Then he said read out your answer and then I said it's the same.
HAHAHHA kantoi XD Teacher was like, "Word for word?" and he took my paper and read my answer, then he jokingly accused the guy. Hahahahahha I was laughing with the whole class and I'm still laughing XD
"Lembu punya susu, sapi punya nama," quote teacher. He said something else as well but the class didn't get it. XD I did though but it's a tad crude LUL. Hahahahahhahaha. Let this be educational :D

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Today was Bahasa Melayu tuition! Teacher taught us Derita Pertama, which is the story of Adam on earth for the first time, at midnight after biting into the Forbidden Fruit. She ceritakan the whole story of Adam and Eve, or Nabi Adam and Hawa. :D Hawa. Hee. XD
So. The story of Adam and Eve according to teacher. :)

God created two beings. One was the iblis (demon/Satan?), made of fire, in which God only gave negative qualities. The other was the malaikat (angel), made of (something I forgot XD) in which God only gave positive qualities.
One day, God created man out of the tanah (earth) and gave him both positive and negative qualities. Man was able to be a bit naughty and still be nice. Man was able to tell good from bad. Man was perfect (as far as they could see).
God was so proud of his creation that he called a meeting in heaven. He called the iblis and the malaikat. God said, "This is Man. He is my best creation and therefore I'm making him ketua of heaven :)" And the iblis immediately went against it. "I am more senior than him, and I want to be the ketua!"
God got angry at the iblis and they argued! Apparently God was so mad, he told the iblis to go to Hell. Well. XD
Leaving the Man and malaikat behind, the iblis swore that he would get revenge!
Man was happy for a while. Everything he wanted to do, he could. Everything he wanted to eat was all there for him. Then one day..
God asked Man, whose name was Adam.
"Why you termenuuuuung je?" To which Adam promptly replied, "Boring lah." HAHAHAHA
"But you have the malaikat to play with." "Dia tu baik sangat lah. Boring :D"
So God took a rib of Adam's while he slept and created Eve, or Hawa. :D
God said to Adam, "This is Eve. You can do anything with her. Remember, you can do everything, EVERYTHING, except eat the buah khuldi/Forbidden Fruit from the tree at the center of Eden. "Okay :D" and he told Eve.
The tree at the center of Eden was the easily the largest and most beautiful tree in heaven which was heavy with bright red, luscious fruit, waiting to be plucked and eaten. Oho~.
So the iblis, looking through the CCTV he pasang-ed in heaven had overheard God telling Adam this. Iblis, being the iblis in all his negative glory saw the opportunity to take revenge! He went up to heaven with the objective to tempt both of them into eating the fruit.
He went for Eve :0
The iblis hung around and spotted Eve. He went up to her and nonchalantly asked her whether she had eaten the fruit of the tree at the center of heaven.
"EH~ tak boleh lah. My husband told me not to :)" and the iblis, with cunning, said, "OH memang rugi! That fruit is the paling sedap in heaven." They chatted a bit more and then the iblis left, with that note hanging in Eve's subconscious.
Eve went home and asked Adam to pick the fruit for her. He denied, saying "nanti God marah." Eve pleaded for days and one day, she cried in front of him. Seeing how men cannot look at crying women, he said "OKAY okay, I'll go pick some."
Off they went to the center of heaven and up the tree went Adam to pick some fruit for his partner. Eve stood at the bottom of the tree and waited. Adam threw one down and she ate it. She asked for one more and Adam gave it to her, still up in the tree. Eve had eaten two and declared herself satisfied. :D Adam, knowing Eve would want one more later for sure (for women memang macam tu XD) took one more to keep.
When Adam got down safely, Eve said, "That was the most delicious fruit I have ever ever tasted! Never have I eaten a fruit sehebat ini. Try one :D"
"NO nanti God marah."
"But I ate two and look, nothing happened." "EH ya ah. ........................................."

So he took a bite.

And immediately he was thrown into darkness, the darkness of midnight on the world. (Of which was continued in Derita Pertama. :D)

(after that, teacher comments..:)
Adam didn't actually eat the apple. He only took a bite and God immediately punished him, giving him no time to swallow. So he tercekik, and look? All guys have an Adam's apple. :D
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YOU SEE? I can explain why we are all like this!
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Adam was made of tanah, and from the tanah grows rumput right? That's why all men are hairy :D Don't believe me look at your kaki sekarang. While we women, we were not made from grass and that's why we licin :D We women are made from the man's right lowest rib, and if you become a forensics expert next time, you can tell the gender from looking at the bones because the females' ribcages are complete while the males' right lowest rib looks as though it patah and cantum to the rib above it.

(she looked at a guy) You see, your kaki? Penuh dengan rumput :D
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All guys have an Adam's apple, but we girls don't have because the epal already went down.

*looks at upper body*

Nasib baik Hawa makan dua.
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
Teacher's hilarious.
Good day :)

Ogling.

Have you ever been ogled at?
Like a piece of meat?
Like a goddess sent from heaven above without apparent reason?
Like an object of curiosity?
Have you ever?
Well. I never had. I always wore big white shirts I got from art exhibitions and competitions when I hit puberty. And long jeans. Though now jeans are sexy. :)
Big, white, plain, printed-with-logo-at-the-side, round collared T shirts that covered half my thigh. And I hunched. I swear. The hunch stuck with me. XD
I stopped writing in my diary to blog about this.
Because my first taste of this ogling (albeit for a short period) was at the tuition centre. They all wore shorts and knee-length bottoms, I wore my signature jeans. :) And the second time, I think, when I wore shorts?
I was advancing to the half-ajar doorway and then there were these two guys staring at me. And looked down. WHOA.
Is that meant to be a compliment? A kind of raw appreciation for the opposite gender's body?
Well..... I is awkward :D Maybe what they say is true. Mystery appeals. HAHAHAHAHAHA
What do you think, dear reader? :)

HEE

I suka.
But I feel evil.

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The person made me so happy today I forgot about my fever hahahahha. I swear there was a little peek. Hee. I do know that I was about to hurl though. Heh. My body is speaking to me!

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Shh... while I climb over the gates around your heart.

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Susan Boyle, you have guts and humour and made Simon Cowell's eyebrows go right up to his hairline the day you sang for the first time and for those three reasons, I LOVE YOU :) you have my respect!