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I want you to know that,

YOU LOOK SO INCREDIBLY CUTE WHEN YOU CRY

That is all.

xxx

Okay, that is not all. Hahaha

I'll always be here for you.

I love you! :3 hahaha it's really unexplainable how I love you SO MUCH after only a short time of knowing you. Like we grew up in the same house, laugh at the same things and know what the other's going to say.

It feels like I haven't seen or hugged you in such a long time <3

Smelliest compound in existence, that's you I'm talking about HAHA

insecurities

Do I mean something to you?
You make everything seem so easy.

Like you do it everyday; it may not be as significant to you as it is for me.

Because after all, this is my first time.

Normally I'd take a few months to really get to know someone's quirks and character, then develop feelings. But you just walked in, charmed the hell out of me with your quiet strength and your subtle ways. You test my limits, you dance around me in circles of flattery and pretty words. The little things you do make me smile and the things you make me do put me on edge. Like, REALLY on edge.

I don't even know if I really like you that way yet.

I know that there's this little bud in me,

and if I let you hold my hand it will bloom slowly, surely and really sweetly.

But that's not playing fair is it!

It's like I'm not truly liking you for you, I'm liking you because you're interested enough in me to want to hold my hand! And it doesn't even seem like much to you D:

Shit I'm so confused.

wow

This isn't a coincidence right? Because you seem to answer all my unsaid questions.

xxx

That's how it is isn't it?

Try,

don't try,

it's still going to hurt.

So just go with it and you won't lose anything.

xxx

Hahaha thanks for reminding me of why I want to feel this with another (:

I want my heart to be lifted indescribably high,

filled till it overflows with mixed emotions

and broken into bits and pieces

by someone who wants me for me.

Because then you'd know I really care. :3 heehee

And after that if I cry, I'll do it without much regret because

I want this.

And I will say it to your face.

Break my heart.

V ^^ V

i fall into a pile on the floor

I Do Adore - Mindy Gledhill

H-H-Heaven help me.
xxx

Could you, like, not make me melt like that?

Speechless alex is no fun.
xxx
It's been raining a lot a lot A LOT lately.
So nice.
I could sleep the whole day long---
if my dad let me.

T - T

grace just isn't my forté

I Do Adore - Mindy Gledhill

When you're near, I hide my blushing face and trip on my shoelaces. :D
xxx
Hahahah the title says it all.
I'm a bumbling,
clumsy,
awkward,
artless,
gauche thing.

):
I try to be all graceful and precise, but it just doesn't want to become me.
Bish.
xxx

I try to be patient and calm, but you put me on edge.
Do I really interest you?
Am I just a placeholder?
I want to make you happy,
yet I know we cannot possibly last.
Do I have the heart to make and break you? God knows it's hard to leave someone, and harder when someone leaves you.

Should we enjoy our time together, or do we speculate about the future?
mehhhhhhhhu.

i love the way you say good morning

The Way I Am - Ingrid Michaelson

(:

xxx

I love saying good morning.

It's like saying, hey you're in my morning, you are the first thing I see in the day and it makes me happy. :3 That's what I feel anyway.

It's intimate, yet polite.

xxx

Happy Malaysia Day! (:

I promise to write something of substance soon. I want to write so badly, but I forgot what I came here to write. ):

See you then? (:

say what?

DISTINCTION FOR GRADE 8 B*TCHEZ!

I love you all,

so, so much.

nightmares

Chasing me, it's always chasing me.

I don't even know what it is.

It just chases me.

Corners me,

suffocates me,

drives me into a dead end.

I cannot take this fear.

xxx

I had a dream that the car i drove fell backwards into a body of water. Water entered and took over my vision.

I was going to die,

and I knew it.

Someone unlocked the doors, and I was like

Thank God.

Rushed to open the car door.

Everything sinking.

No oxygen.

Can't breathe.

And I woke up grasping at the air,

wanting to cry.

if you were an ice cream flavour

You would be my favourite one.

All About Your Heart - Mindy Gledhill

xxx

Hello :D how you been!

My practical exam went okay...

My scales were HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE THINGS

then everything picked up after that. Pieces flew beautifully, and I enjoyed playing them.

My examiner was a tall British man called Jonathan Beatty. His eyes were a beautiful, clear blue-green and greeted me with polite warmth. Before I played Month's Mind by John Ireland, I said "I hope you like Ireland." And he was like "I love Ireland."

:DDD

He even thanked me after playing it, saying he doesn't hear it enough.

Heheh.

My last one about describing the piece and period was kind of off though.. but what's done is done. I regret ONLY THE SCALES.

<3

xxx

I went on my first date yesterday.

<3

xxx

I didn't even know for sure that it was a date...

But I loved every moment. I enjoyed his company very much and that's kinda all there is to it.

We had lunch and he paid,

we had ice cream,

and we walked and talked.

I love the way he touches; respectful yet intimate.

I like the way he looks at me; assessing, warm, direct. Honest. Predatory sometimes. D:

I hate the way he always compliments me to fluster me that bastard

And I love to make him smile.

All in all, a gorgeous day.