another day another year

It was my birthday some 10 days ago. :)
The thing about having your birthday so early in the year is that once you start a fresh year, no one knows it's your day. I do so love being surprised by lovely people.
AND MUN YEE ESPECIALLY
She gave me a bottle of beer hahahahahhaa :'D
I was so touched.
xxx
After college, I went to Aoyama in Hartamas for dinner. I went there once, and the set lunches were affordable and so good. Because of ma we already knew the staff quite well. And we only went there once wtf. XD
So these people treat us really well! We smiled at the waiters and waitress (she was real nice), and i ate cha soba (cold soba noodles) for the first time! I've always wanted to try it :'D it was so GOOD. UMAIII SO. TOTEMO OISHII DESU.
We got free ice cream because ma insisted XD so we had wasabi, sesame, and Ocean Blue flavoured ice cream. OMG! So delicious yet unique.
.....Wasabi ice cream makes me laugh XD want to see me laugh for no reason? This is what you feed me.
Ocean Blue is a sort of salt-ish ice cream! Yet it surprised me and turned out really amazing.

Then they gave me.........
a fan :'D

Want to see it?


Huh? Huh??

Really? I'm gonna open it!

TEEHEE

I love it so much. It's so pretty. Thank you Aoyama. (:
We went home, and then we had cake. Baked classic blueberry cheese cake, one of my ultimate favourites :'D Aughh thank you guys. All your wishes made my day too. (:
Looking forward to next year's. Hahahaha.

let your heart lead blindly

Let Go - Dave Lichens
xxx
Wandering around is such a such a such a PLEASURE 8D
Absolutely love it. I can watch people and sometimes catch their eye, form a weird acknowledgement kind of kinship then never meet again.
Though I always hope we meet again for those weird kinship things. I always hope for sweet unrealistic serendipities. xD
I once saw this guy, passed by him quite a few times too. Soon we recognized each other.. but then we were directly opposite each other in Kinokuniya so I smiled at him.
He smiled back! And I averted my eyes, so embarrassed. XD wtf. Then I curiously asked the lady beside me who's looking at this book called, Looking For Mr Right or something. Hahahahah and accidentally started a conversation.
So I didn't see him after that.
): /cue awwwww

you mean more than you should mean

No More Wishing - Hayley Taylor

why.
xxx
I'm studying now :) in college.
So fast! :P so nerdy. hahahaha
It's going great,and being a college girl is.. i don't know.
It's making me look different D: I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT
Hahahahha
And I met someone I met two years ago, in the same class. He has that quality where i'm inexorably, unexplicably, whatwhat-bly drawn to him. I want to get to know him, talk to him. It was the same thing two years back, but he was easier with his smiles back then.
Now he... broods. WTH hahahahaha
An enigma.
Now how about that.

cuddle up

cats sleep so adorably. they curl up and retain heat so efficiently, tail, paws, legs perfectly arranged into a ball.
KEKEKEKE
xxx
College life so far is interesting. Classes are super disjointed so i have small holes in my timetable but it keeps me in the college the whole bloody day!
And there are so many people!
*You should know that the way i communicate with strangers, is really quite disconcerting. I have this habit where i stare into the other's eyes before i talk to them at all. Once I talk though I get flustered and try to keep up the eye contact but look away often.
Point is I stare a lot. XD*
Sometimes i have a moment with some people, that amazing moment where you lock gazes and hold it for one second too long.
:'D I do so love those moments.
SHO YEA
How are all of you?
How's life after SPM?
Or life in general? Since I don't know who reads this dead blog anymore.xD

i feel like

I want to be a bloody recluse.
Write.
Draw.
Cry.
Laugh.
Play music the whole bloody day long and wail.
But the outside world is beautiful too, coaxing me out.
The beauty pales, comes in second to her smile.

Is it so hard to believe that she's gone.
That everyone looks back fondly and nothing more.
Why am i so caught up.

Should i delete her number. her texts.
her pictures. that video of her where she refuses to swear mildly as written in the script.

That stupid turning point where i received the message second saying she won't make it.
She won't?
She didn't.

xxx

on days like these i write. i run through all my doubts.
The things i never did,never said.
It's good for my writing side.
Yeah. optimism ftw.

how close we really are

"you don't matter to me.
nor you.
nor you."
deleted.

Is this where i stand in your life.

My sight is blurred by you, only you.
I'm sorry, i miss you.
I loved you so.

So much, nobody else comes close. I'm so sorry.