Wash your hands, it's not your life.

All I want is some room to be heard
Speak, live and breathe
Have you seen some kind of truth?
What?
This, they called it?
Do you see me, do you see me like you?
Big things, bright lights
What do you choose to fight?
Poor things, not right

Do you give a damn?
If you don't see me like you?
(chorus)
Oh it's a shame
To say it's okay
Wash your hands
It's not your life
It's easier, if you don't see me like you
(bridge)
What does it take
To push and break this down
What fools we make
The circle goes around
Around and on
(chorus)

Mei Chern - Do You See Me Like You
Back again.
Sorry for not talking to you when you obviously have something to say. Next time round I'll make way through all the chatter for you :)
Sorry for not doing things right and always passing the wrong word. GOD. I won't pass any word anymore. Stupid, stupid stupid thing to do. I wonder if he hates me now, for passing two?
I'm to speak today! :D CF's gonna be small again but it just feels like home already.
Give Chutney the strength she needs to get through everything. Close your eyes everybody! Amen. :)

Pour Toi

If time froze right in its very boots...

Hello there. I don't know how to say this.. but there's just so much to say to you, but we've not had the chance now have we? I want to know more about you, your weird little quirks, what makes you smile. How you first decided to smile back for no apparent reason, why were you always so quiet until this year? How I was drawn to you while you did nothing at all, your face was the one I sought whenever I descended the stairs. How only sly looks and eavesdropping finally earned me your name, and how happy I was when I first saw you smile, laugh and heard your voice after so bloody long. So different from the taciturn guardian of the stairs. Can you imagine the thoughts of the guy when you do something embarassing? I mean, you'd probably know, but we girls certainly don't! Or... maybe I'll just speak for myself. So, you know. Whenever I get the chance I'll talk to you. About your work in the school magazine and about how much confidence you possess that I don't seem to. Goodbye, now.

Then I'll run away........ far far away. Hide somewhere and press the play button; resume your life without knowing, okay? :)
Okay.

Halloween and Deepavali!

Happy Halloween!

Today's CF was great! Small, but great nevertheless. :D There's a word for it. XD Hahaha.
Sweets for everyone too! :D cost RM9 but it was worth it. If not I wouldn't have known that Sue Sann, Sue Huey and Sue Cern like sour ribbon but not Nano Nano :'( Hahahhahhahaha!
Tagged by the lil' miss Jiet Er!

• Do you think you're hot? Meh?! Well. I don't. XD that's why I compensate with randomness. Now eat your macaroni. XD
  
• Upload your favourite picture of you!
  
  'Nuff said. XD
  
• Why do you like that picture? Because it's funny! I got another too XD

We bananas in pyjamas! XD guess who's who.

See my teeth? See my sister? YEAH :D

• When was the last time you ate pizza? Oh! My dad's birthday :D or was it CF? XD

• "HUH I'M NOT AFFECTED BY YELLOW LIGHHTT! 8D"
• The last song you listened to? The last two I remember are You Make It Real by James Morrison and Please (intro) by Fixed. Super Crazy Guitar Maniac Deluxe 2! :D
• What are you doing now instead of this? Uploading new found gems of pictures on Facebook. I really hope they go through XD
• What name would you prefer besides yours? I LIKE MY NAME! hahahahha I dunno. Leah perhaps, but it wouldn't suit now would it? I have grown into an Alex! Mwahahaha.
• People to tag! I touch you. Serra! FATFAT! Eclair! Sebab I seksi! XD and.. I dunno. I don't have many readers. SHIVA! :D Both Narrthine and Ruppeni! :D You're it! Hahahha *runs away*
• Who is number one? Number one is a really great girl who loves to love and is hilarious, with an equally strong emo side. XD She writes song lyrics too. 8D With her cousins and her washing machine, she's unstoppable!!
• Number 3 is having a relationship with.. you do realize that I put your name third because of this right? XD XD HAHA don't kill me! Well. She's having a relationship WITH--*gagged by Ecky* hahahha I think she knows. I'll have all of you know though that their interactions are so cute XD
• Say something about no 5? OH THE BOTH OF THEM are so funny together! XD they dig at each other but in the end, they're close. :D should see Shiva R when da Narrthine had a fever XD
• How about no 4? ........ EHEM! XD as you can see from the desbo sexy hippo plus a pizza slice with extra cheese picture, I think I better shut my trap.
  NOT! XD hahahahhaha she's aggresive and sexy and that makes it all the worse for me when she decides to perv on me 8D hhahahahaha and she's scared of horror movies so I'll BOO her! And DENZEL WASHINGTON! XD hahahahhahahaha ada lagi, don't play play. XD
• Who is no 2? Jiet Er! He's my ex senior too! *high5. I think.* hahahaha! He's my fatfat cousin who I like to CS on every once in a while. College has made his fingers so fast, everytime I talk to him on MSN it's like a ratio of 100:1 XD and he has a blog! Finally. ERR he also likes random stuff and words and FOOD! :D

I guess that's the end of it..
Next tag I'm doing is the hippo Amanda's. ;D dunno how long that'd be!
OMG Black Magic Woman! At 2.50 am XD
Deepavali last Monday was great! I saw Pavithran, Paveena, Pavesha and other family members and of course, their parents. :D they're all so big now. And Pavithran's hot. XD hahahaha it's the voice thing. Pavesha was so cute! And funny too XD Paveena though was SO FUNNAY! XD Yee Mun came and we got to know each other through.. Happy Tree Friends XD you'll never guess right? XD hahahah OH and Max Payne!
Hope Pavithran's fever is gone.
Guitar soothes my restless fingers.
My dear.
Sigh.
Good day!

Teh Hippo Intro! :D

BLOODY HELL! I've got the bloody beautiful songs on Of Music and Sundays!! :'D
Tony Desare - How I Will Say I Love You
Mei Chern - Do You See Me Like You
- Feels Like Falling
:'D I feel so utterly at peace now. How can I not when Tony Desare's singing such hope, when the other broke his heart? Beautiful.
Anyway.
If you haven't seen my sister's blog, I suggest you go visit the hippo's blog, where at least you can glimpse all her HIPPONESS!! http://serenadeserendipity.blogspot.com/ hilarious gila! XD
She asked, then perved on me to get me to blog about her.........................
= = DON'T ASK
hahahahhaha XD yes. I don't really know enough of what happened today, I was having the most uncomfortable sleep sweating my fever out XD so I can't blog about her extensively. Though I CAN indeed vouch for the fact that she RRIAOW-ed her way through the minutes I was awake. XD rriaow, hippo. Rriaow.
Hahahahhahahaha!
We visited Lara at her grandma's house! And the view there was absolutely stunning. KL Tower on the eve of Deepavali was lit with all kinds of colours XD purple!!!!!!
KLCC too! But for some reason I could only see one tower O _ o dunno what happened to the twin.
Some stroke of luck for Lara to get the doctor's suspicion of bone tumour after the big exam. 2 months of a pain in her leg that she thought was normal; now we're all holding our breath for the result. Hugging her was so fun in her grandma's house :) the house was freaking HUGE! Spacious! And the sofa was so comfy and slippery! XD or, to quote Dessert de la Mango, she just had a slippery ass XD Rosalie played a violent balloon tennis game with my youngest sister Chloe, and it was hilarious! XD
Last Friday, CF was a blast! :D because we played Signs where one person stood in the middle of the ring of people and guessed where the sign was. People in the ring with their own sign have to pass it on to other people without the person guessing of course XD HOW you pass the sign, you say? Well first you gotta do your own sign then do the intended person's sign and make sure the person sees it XD

Amos and Daniel were so funny that day! And I was just randomly doing stuff; clapping my hands and doing the calamari XD (Daniel's sign was clapping hands but the hands don't meet; Amos's was the hand gesture when people said 'OKAY je lah') so it was my turn to pass a sign when the person in the middle (I forgot who) looked at me and I went all 'calamari' XD Daniel was laughing and then he said, 'so OPEN!' XD and I passed on the sign to Amos with his sign. :D
Then as the hippo was passing the sign I was clapping my hands and Amos looked at me; the person in the middle (I FORGOT! Mother XD) followed his line of vision and then Amos quipped "THAT looks familiar." and looked pointedly to Daniel. XD

DEEENG. Hahahhahahahhaha

The last round, it was Daniel's turn to pass the sign and he was directing it to me but I was laughing and coughing so I didn't see it until I glimpsed it and continued coughing XD then he KENA! yay. Amos's wish came true. XD
And the hippo refused to help me sing D: I had a sore throat and you... YU IZ MEAN HIPPO D:
hahahhahhhaha no lah. Yu iz MY sexy hippo with yellow underwear that prompts people to go slower XD XD OMG we on crack.
Super Crazy Guitar Maniac Deluxe 2 rocks! :D http://www.kongregate.com/games/Shinki/super-crazy-guitar-maniac-deluxe-2 takes a while to load, though it's worth the wait! :D
This Friday there's a cooking competition, and I wanna join! So far the people that said yes to join me are the cookie cutter, Serra, and Rosalie :D I haven't told Pn Azlina yet though. I wanna go see KL Tower and go up on the observation deck! SLEEPLESS IN SELANGOR~ hahahaha!
I wanna watch Kami too. :(
Ei.
By the way, afflatus means a divine imparting of knowledge and power. In other words, inspiration :D HO YEAH fatfat! Good luck! :D
Good day everyone. :D

How I Will Say I Love You

Sing the blues - I'll listen intently,

Call my name - I'll be at your door.

Cry out loud - I'll hold you till it's over,

And that's how I will say I love you.

Fall asleep - I'll wake up beside you,

Feel my heart beating next to yours,

Lose your way - I promise I will find you,

And that's how I will say I love you.

What would I do to show my love to you?

Leave my whole world for one minute with you.

Break the rules - I'll bend them around you,

Play the fool - I would never know,

Break my heart - I'll still be glad I found you,

And that's how I will say I love you.

~Tony DeSare.

I love this song! :D
GUESS I'm just a romantic at heart, haha.
PMR started today; Bahasa Malaysia paper 1 was quite confusing, but Paper 2 was THE BEST I'VE WRITTEN :D Thank you Mr Mark!! *sobs*
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That was yesterday XD
Today's English was good! :D
Science though was... very... abnormal, haha! It was quite different from the normal questions asked.. and I said good luck today, yay! *applause*
I switched it back to anybody can read because.. the truth is emancipating!! XD haha. I feel like the whole world already knows anyway so what the hell, you know.
Yes.
What the hell.
Good luck tomorrow. XD

The Coast is Clear?

Haha.. I told HEyes. :D and he took it quite well. True, I never saw his face but he's gonna be all right. I hope. XD
Up at 6.30 people! hahaha.
Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin! It was yesterday but, apologies are still apologies so XD
I.... have tried... THE LEMANG!! XD It was so yummy with the lontong, and I was driving ma daddy up the wall with "Pa, I wanna eat lemang." hahahha! Finally. XD

So, so you think you can tell?
Heaven from Hell, Blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field,
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Pink Floyd, ya'll. Hahahaha XD
I dunno what to say really, so..
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Hahahahahahha so random! :D
Good day to all of you.

Haunted

I feel alone.
Rifts are already becoming obvious. Bigger. Deeper.
I nearly cried yesterday in school when I realized that Serra and Ecky and Btisbg didn't attend school. Nothing to distract me from the bloody obvious fact that Lily's avoiding us like the bloody plague. Lara's our link, and soon she'll become exhausted too. Patience has already worn thin!
But I'm not brave enough to confront her.
H. Eyes is sweet, but so far he's just that. I'm absolutely haunted by Btisbg. In the national anthem, on a book my dad bought, through Serra, his duty place, his stare even when I'm not looking... I know I shouldn't, so I'll just mask it. :)
HOW ARE YOU! :D fatfat! I read your hilarious story again and then I remembered that I killed a cockroach with a hard book once. XD Never with a ROD though! AHAHAHA XD
Lucky for me I have such great friends at school! Lara, Daniel, Niq, Dalilah, Fadzlin, Zuri....... :) Thank you all!
Love Take 5. XD
http://paradoxofobscurity.blogspot.com Can you, can you hug her sometime? :D
WHOAZERS. Ecky, you predator XD XD AHAHAHA!
Dunno what else I was gonna write :D I'll post when I remember.
NO FATFAT! Don't complain XD XD Ahahahaha!
Do you know that I post all the words in any colour other than red for your benefit?? HA! XD
Eidolon: a noun denoting a spectre, phantom or an idealized figure. :)
Elysium: place where the blessed go after death; place or state of ideal happiness, of a paradise :D WHEE!
emancipate: free from legal, social, political, intellectual or moral restraint. Emancipate yourself people! :D Yay Bob Marley. XD

Lovely Days

HELL YEAH! I just had to get this date down XD 10.09.08! :)
It's my dad's birthday!
It's a Wednesday!
Hazel Eyes got my number! XD
Lovely days indeed.
WHAT THE HECK! Fatfat! XD XD ahahahahaha!! Just this morning Mr D and Niq fooled me into believing there was a cockroach at my feet. I looked because they pointed!! XD now you make a crack about me and my Roll Of Doom XD AHAHAHAHA!
Random lah you. But hilarious! XD
I now have responsibilities in two lovely clubs that I, well. Love XD
Eclair! There's no need to be down as lovely things and sh*t balance each other out, so just you wait. ^^ Optimism suffocating you, but I'm there for you. Okay? :)
CF's gonna be a blast this week! Pn Chua's buying pizza XD And Francis is coming to speak! Jeremy's still stoning. XD Ahaha!
Lara's given me a notebook from the World Halal Forum, with near blank pages save the grey www.worldhalalforum.org printed below the page. Don't click the blue thing if you don't intend to go! XD It's now dedicated to sketches and drawings ONLY. I hope. :D
OH! I almost forgot. Entry's word is peace, meaning a state of harmony and absence of hostility; calmness, serenity, silence, tranquility. Perfect for life on the tenth of September, 2008. :) SORRY if I let you down fatfat! XD Ahahaha!
So this is love, Mmmmmmmm
So this is love
So this is what makes life divine
I'm all aglow, Mmmmmmmm
And now I know
The key to all heaven is mine
My heart has wings, Mmmmmmmm
And I can fly
I'll touch every star in the sky
So this is the miracle that I've been dreaming of
So this is love
Mmmmmmmm
So this is love
HA. Like I'll feel that anytime soon. XD but it's a lovely song ainnit? :) LOVE-ly! Get it?? XD hahahaha, lame.
Good day!

Stumped and Alone

I have just finished massaging my youngest sister to sleep. XD Ahahahaha!
So as the title suggests, I am totally and utterly stumped. Stupefied. Silly. XD
Ecky has not been PRESENT in school lately XD hahaha! Hope you're doing well! (as you always get sick XD)
Serra's told me that apparently, hazel eyes likes me. Her words went sum'min like this:
If you were to choose between cookie cutter and hazel eyes, which one would you pick?
I stammered and stuttered and mumbled, then said cookie cutter. Y'know, maybe I like him more because of constant contact.
He (hazel eyes), told me this morning, that he like like(s/d??) you. So... what're you gonna do? Don't break his heart! He's a good friend, my best friend. .... (I don't quite remember, but it went along the lines of that)
I'm just gonna bloody rant right here and now, as I can't do it anywhere else as I KNOW, that sometimes people do not want to listen to my pathetic and full of myself ramblings.
Don't deny it ;D
I dunno what the hell I'm gonna do! I mean, I have had a thing of sorts for hazel eyes since last year as he always got prefect duty at our Form 2 stairs. I smile at him just to see his serious mask, break. Unspoken.
.....WAIT breaking news! Lara's grandmother in IPOH (XD) has gotten really really sick, and Lara's on her way to the hospital there. I dunno what I'm gonna do. Maybe I'll stay up the whole night to accompany her. I shall! XD At times, beauty sleep needs to be sacrificed XD Ahahahahaha! I just want to be there for everyone. Yes? :D Well. God, I do hope that things will fall as they should and let the chips fall as they may. DOUSE Lara, her grandma and her family with courage and strength!
Back to the stairs. XD
Lara dared me once to ask him for his name. XD I didn't do it. Still haven't. XD
Since then we've smiled at each other.
I got to know his name from sneaking sly looks at his name tag last year and accidentally overhearing some people conversing about him XD I never even saw him smile till the end of last year, and I've heard his voice then too. For the first time. How very lame. XD Ahahaha!
We've never even had an introduction! This is so gonna be in Deai. (Deai is my manga thingy based on hazel eyes and Ashley XD)
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This is what I wrote yesterday. Today Ecky and I talked in a "mature and adult" way XD XD So I am not alone! :D
I'm still confused.
I guess if we'd had some kind of introduction, and talked, maybe I'd like hazel eyes as much as I do the cookie cutter?
Oh that reminds me! Today, my friend's sister Ashley had pains in her stomach near the school office, and that happened to be where cookie cutter had his duty, so I ran down the stairs he was guarding straight to Ashley. I know she was frustrated and on the verge of tears and all, but she was on the phone and looking at a teacher beside her who was letting Ashley use her phone, so I couldn't help but be distracted XD he kept looking over at our direction..... but how do I know this? Because I look over at him XD I sigh at myself. XD ahahahaha!
Lara's grandmother is deciding not to eat and drink and be on any feeding tubes or IV drips of any sort. I dunno what I shall do.
A good day to all of you who read this ^^ :D

Poll, Food, Book, Songs and Words

WHOA! So many requests XD ahahahahahahha! I'll do the best I can. Harp about sio bee (siew mai but BIGGER 8D), read Shin Chan, listen to my playlist and WORDS---- the bomb! :D just you wait! Hahahahahahaha!
Okay, I shall have a postly word. XD hahahaha! UM, this post's word shall be, eclaircissement! :D it means an explanation of something puzzling. Just ask a certain Eclair and she will say, she cannot believe the French can describe describing her so well XD YOU ARE PUZZLING indeed. XD ahahahaha!
Have a good day. ;D